أنامُI sleep وروعيand my terror لاnot ينامsleeps فكلماfor whenever
أنامُ وروعي لا ينام فكلما
حمانيprotected me الكرىslumber منهfrom it دهانيassailed me باحلاميthrough my dreams
حماني الكرى منه دهاني باحلامي
I sleep, but my terror does not sleep; for whenever
I sleep but my mind stays awake. Whenever
slumber shields me from it, it assails me through my dreams.
Sorrow overwhelms me, it lulls me with my dreams.
وماand not زارنيvisited me الطيفthe apparition المحبthe loving one وإنماbut only
وما زارني الطيف المحب وإنما
يلمcomes briefly بيto me الطيفthe apparition الولوعُthe one intent بإيلاميon hurting me
يلم بي الطيف الولوعُ بإيلامي
And no loving apparition has visited me; only
The beloved specter did not visit me, rather
the apparition bent on hurting me comes to me.
The specter of agony afflicted me with anguish.
ولمand did not أنسforget رؤياa vision روعتنيterrified me بوقفةٍby standing
ولم أنس رؤيا روعتني بوقفةٍ
لدىbefore المجلسthe tribunal العرفيmartial-law يقضيsentencing بأعداميto my execution
لدى المجلس العرفي يقضي بأعدامي
Nor have I forgotten a terrifying vision of myself standing
I cannot forget a dream that startled me with a scene
before the martial tribunal as it sentenced me to death.
In front of the customary council sentencing me to death.
وقفتI stood وكفand the palm الموتof death تلطمslaps وجنتيmy cheek
وقفت وكف الموت تلطم وجنتي
ومستقبليand my future خلفيbehind me وماضيand my past قداميbefore me
ومستقبلي خلفي وماضي قدامي
I stood while death's palm slapped my cheek,
I stood while death’s palm slapped my cheek
with my future behind me and my past before me.
With my future behind me and my past ahead.
ولماand when أتىcame الجلادthe executioner يحكمtightens حبلهhis rope
ولما أتى الجلاد يحكم حبله
علىaround عنقيmy neck والليلand the night يسترconceals ظلاميmy oppressors
على عنقي والليل يستر ظلامي
And when the executioner came to tighten his rope
When the executioner came to tighten his rope
around my neck, while night concealed my oppressors,
Around my neck as the night cloaked my darkness,
نظرتI looked إلىtoward لبنانLebanon آخرlast نظرةa look
نظرت إلى لبنان آخر نظرة
ختمتI ended بهاwith it آمالhopes نفسيof my soul وآلاميand my pains
ختمت بها آمال نفسي وآلامي
I cast one last look toward Lebanon,
I took one last look at Lebanon
with which I brought my soul's hopes and my pains to an end.
And sealed with it the hopes and pains of my soul.
ولكنيbut I استيقظتI awoke والروعand terror ماثلmanifest
ولكني استيقظت والروع ماثل
لعينيbefore my eyes فيin صحبيmy companions وأبناءand the sons أعماميof my paternal uncles
لعيني في صحبي وأبناء أعمامي
But I awoke, and terror was manifest
But I awoke while the specter lingered
before my eyes in my companions and the sons of my paternal uncles.
Before my eyes, among my family and paternal uncles.
فياso, oh ليتif only ذاكthat الحلمthe dream كانwas حقيقةًa reality
فيا ليت ذاك الحلم كان حقيقةً
وياand oh ليتif only نوميmy sleep طالlasted long طيلةfor all of أياميmy days
ويا ليت نومي طال طيلة أيامي
So, if only that dream had been real!
If only that dream had been real
And if only my sleep had lasted all my days!
And my sleep had lasted the length of my days.
Sol 6.1