إِنَّindeed ذَنبيmy sin وَاللَهby God ذَنبa sin كَبيرgreat
إِنَّ ذَنبي وَاللَه ذَنب كَبير
غَيرhowever أَنيthat I بحلمكمin your forbearance أَستَجيرI seek refuge
غَير أَني بحلمكم أَستَجير
Indeed, my sin, by God, is a great sin.
Indeed, my sin - by Allah - is a grave sin
Yet I seek refuge in your forbearance.
Though through your forbearance I seek deliverance
ضاقَgrew constricted صَدريmy breast وَأَخجَلand shamed الذَنبthe sin وَجهيmy face
ضاقَ صَدري وَأَخجَل الذَنب وَجهي
وَاِعتَرانيand befell me منfrom الحَياshame تَغييرa change
وَاِعتَراني من الحَيا تَغيير
My breast grew tight, and sin shamed my face,
My breast grew constrained, and the sin made my face blush in shame
And shame wrought a change in me.
And repentance led me to change my ways in life
وَتَأسفتand I felt remorse حينwhen كانhappened الَّذيwhat كاfirst part of 'happened'
وَتَأسفت حين كان الَّذي كا
نَcompletion of 'happened' وَلكنand yet جَرىcame to pass بِهِwith it المَقدورwhat was decreed
نَ وَلكن جَرى بِهِ المَقدور
And I felt remorse when what was done was done;
And I grieved when what happened had happened
Yet what was decreed came to pass.
Yet destiny had its course set out
وَتَأَخرتand I delayed عنfrom لقاكمmeeting you حياءout of shame
وَتَأَخرت عن لقاكم حياء
ثُمّthen انيindeed I أَعيانيexhausted me التَأخيرthe delay
ثُمّ اني أَعياني التَأخير
And I delayed meeting you out of shame;
And I hesitated to meet you out of shyness
Then the delay exhausted me.
But then my procrastination distressed me
وَتَرَكتand I gave up الحُضورattendance بَينَbetween يَديكمyour hands
وَتَرَكت الحُضور بَينَ يَديكم
خَجلاout of shame حينwhen عمنيoverwhelmed me التَقصيرshortcoming
خَجلا حين عمني التَقصير
And I ceased to come before you,
And I neglected to present myself before you
Out of shame, when my failings overwhelmed me.
Ashamed when neglect had marred me
وَتستربand I concealed myself (uncertain reading) بِالتغفلthrough heedlessness وَالجهand the first part of 'ignorance'
وَتسترب بِالتغفل وَالجه
لcompletion of 'ignorance' وَماand not كلevery مذنبsinner مَستورconcealed
ل وَما كل مذنب مَستور
And I concealed myself [uncertain reading] through heedlessness and ignorance;
And I covered myself with disregard and ignorance
Yet not every sinner is concealed.
Yet not every sinner can remain hidden
وَكَمand how often اِشتَقتI longed لِلحُضورto be present اِلَيكُمto you
وَكَم اِشتَقت لِلحُضور اِلَيكُم
ثَمthen (apparently intended) انيindeed I أَقولsay كَيفَhow الحُضورattendance
ثَم اني أَقول كَيفَ الحُضور
And how often I longed to come to you,
And how much I yearned to be present before you
Then I say: how can I come?
But then I say - how can I be present?
وَتَفكرتand I pondered فيabout الخَلاصdeliverance منfrom الذَfirst part of 'the sin'
وَتَفكرت في الخَلاص من الذَ
نبcompletion of 'sin' فَاَعياso exhausted فُؤاديmy heart التَفكيرreflection
نب فَاَعيا فُؤادي التَفكير
And I pondered deliverance from sin;
And I pondered over salvation from sin
So reflection exhausted my heart.
My heart racked in thought
وَتَوالَتand came in succession عَلَيّupon me أَفكارthoughts سوءof evil
وَتَوالَت عَلَيّ أَفكار سوء
أَقلقتنيtroubled me وَاِحتارand became bewildered فيهاover them الضَميرthe conscience
أَقلقتني وَاِحتار فيها الضَمير
And evil thoughts came upon me one after another;
And evil notions thronged me
They troubled me, and my conscience was bewildered by them.
Disquieting me, and confusing my conscience
لكنbut العَفوforgiveness لَيسnot يبعدis distant عَنكُمfrom you
لكن العَفو لَيس يبعد عَنكُم
فَعَسىso may أَنthat يصحrecover قَلبa heart كَسيرbroken
فَعَسى أَن يصح قَلب كَسير
But forgiveness is not far from you,
But forgiveness is not far from you
So may a broken heart be made whole.
So perhaps a broken heart may yet heal
انindeed ظنيmy opinion وَاللَهby God فيكمof you جَميلgood
ان ظني وَاللَه فيكم جَميل
وَلسانيand my tongue عنregarding اِعتِذاريmy apology قَصيرshort
وَلساني عن اِعتِذاري قَصير
Indeed, my opinion of you, by God, is good,
For surely - by Allah - I think well of you
And my tongue falls short in offering my apology.
Though my tongue falls short in expressing my apology
سعةbreadth الصَدرof the breast قَدindeed دَعَتنيprompted me اِلىto ماwhat
سعة الصَدر قَد دَعَتني اِلى ما
كانَhappened منيfrom me وَالحلمand forbearance عَنكُمof you شَهيرrenowned
كانَ مني وَالحلم عَنكُم شَهير
Your breadth of heart led me to what
Breadth of heart invited me to what I had done
I did; and your forbearance is renowned.
While forbearance from you is well known
شيمَةthe trait الاكرَمينof the noblest عَفوpardon وَصفحand forgiveness
شيمَة الاكرَمين عَفو وَصفح
كلevery ذنبsin لَدَيكُمwith you مَغفورforgiven
كل ذنب لَدَيكُم مَغفور
Pardon and forgiveness are the way of the noblest;
It is the way of the noblest to pardon and overlook
With you, every sin is forgiven.
Every sin by you is forgiven
Sol 6.1