إِلَهي لا تُعَذِّبني فَإِنّي
مُقِرٌّ بِالَّذي قَد كانَ مِنّي
My God, do not torment me, for I
confess to all that has come from me.
وَما لي حيلَةٌ إِلّا رَجائي
وَعَفوُكَ إِن عَفَوتَ وَحُسنُ ظَنّي
No recourse have I except my hope,
Your pardon—should You pardon—and my trust in You.
فَكَم مِن زِلَّةٍ لي في البَرايا
وَأَنتَ عَلَيَّ ذو فَضلٍ وَمَنِّ
How many a lapse of mine among creation,
while You have shown me grace and favor.
إِذا فَكَّرتُ في نَدَمي عَلَيها
عَضَضتُ أَنامِلي وَقَرَعتُ سِنّي
Whenever I ponder my remorse over them,
I bite my fingertips and gnash my teeth.
يَظُنُّ الناسُ بي خَيراً وَإِنّي
لَشَرُّ الناسِ إِن لَم تَعفُ عَنّي
People think well of me, though I
would surely be the worst of people if You did not pardon me.
أُجَنُّ بِزَهرَةِ الدُنيا جُنوناً
وَأُفني العُمرَ فيها بِالتَمَنّي
I am maddened by the blossom of this world—utterly mad,
and squander my life in it on wishful dreams.
وَبَينَ يَدَيَّ مُحتَبَسٌ طَويلٌ
كَأَنّي قَد دُعيتُ لَهُ كَأَنّي
And ahead of me lies a long confinement,
as though I had already been summoned to it—as though I...
وَلَو أَنّي صَدَقتُ الزُهدَ فيها
قَلَبتُ لِأَهلِها ظَهرَ المِجَنِّ
Had I been sincere in renouncing this world,
I would have turned the shield’s back upon its people.
Sol 5.6