أرانيI see myself دونماapart from الخلقِcreation مُنِعتُI was barred
أراني دونما الخلقِ مُنِعتُ
منfrom الدّنياthe world وفيand in الغيْبِthe unseen ظللَتُI remained
من الدّنيا وفي الغيْبِ ظللَتُ
I see myself, unlike the rest of creation, barred
I was created without a purpose
from the world, while I remained in the unseen.
Denied of this world and left in obscurity
أرىI see أحوالَهاher conditions فيin كلّevery وجهٍface
أرى أحوالَها في كلّ وجهٍ
بغىsought أحداًsomeone فخانthen betrayed العُمرَlife سبتُa Saturday
بغى أحداً فخان العُمرَ سبتُ
I see her conditions in every face
I see the conditions of it in every aspect
that sought someone—then a Saturday betrayed life.
When someone desired it, they wasted their life in vain
وأسمعُand I hear صوتَهاher voice أنّthe groan of ظلومٍa great wrongdoer
وأسمعُ صوتَها أنّ ظلومٍ
وشدوَand the song of مُظفَّرٍa victor عاداboth returned فحِرْتُso I was bewildered
وشدوَ مُظفَّرٍ عادا فحِرْتُ
And I hear her voice: a wrongdoer's groan
And I hear its voice that the oppressor
and a victor's song—both returned, and I was bewildered.
And the singing of the victorious have returned so I was confused
فأصبحتُso I came to أميزُdistinguish الحلوَthe sweet فيهاwithin her
فأصبحتُ أميزُ الحلوَ فيها
منfrom المرِّthe bitter وشيئاًand anything ماnot أُذِقتُI was made to taste
من المرِّ وشيئاً ما أُذِقتُ
So I came to distinguish the sweet within her
So I have come to discern the sweetness in it
from the bitter, though I was made to taste nothing.
From the bitter though I have not tasted anything
فمنّيتُso I filled with hopes الفؤادَthe heart بهاof her علىdespite كلweariness (first fragment)
فمنّيتُ الفؤادَ بها على كل
لcompletes 'weariness' ماwhat فيهاwithin her منof الضَّيْمِoppression وقلتُand I said:
ل ما فيها من الضَّيْمِ وقلتُ:
So I filled my heart with hopes of her, despite the weariness
So I wished in my heart over everything in it
from the oppression within her, and said:
Of hardship and said:
فلوso, if only أنّيthat I كماjust like الإنسِhumankind خُلقتُI was created
فلو أنّي كما الإنسِ خُلقتُ
وفيand in جَسَدٍa body منof الطينِclay حلَلْتُI dwelt
وفي جَسَدٍ من الطينِ حلَلْتُ
If only I had been created like humankind
If only I was created like the humans
and dwelt in a body of clay.
And clothed with a body of clay
ولكنّيbut I بلاwithout غايٍan aim تُركتُI was left
ولكنّي بلا غايٍ تُركتُ
فماso not كُلّفتُI was charged with a duty أوor حتّىeven أُمِرتُI was commanded
فما كُلّفتُ أو حتّى أُمِرتُ
But I was left without an aim,
But I was left without an aim
never charged with a duty, or even commanded,
So I was not burdened or even ordered
فأنجوso I escape منfrom جهنّمHell إنif أطَعْتُI obeyed
فأنجو من جهنّم إن أطَعْتُ
وألقاهاand I meet it ذميماًdisgraced إنْif عصَيْتُI disobeyed
وألقاها ذميماً إنْ عصَيْتُ
so that I might escape Hell if I obeyed,
To be saved from Hell if I obeyed
and meet it in disgrace if I disobeyed.
And to face it in disgrace if I disobeyed
وماand not اخترتُI chose ولاnor خُيِّرتُI was given a choice فيماconcerning what
وما اخترتُ ولا خُيِّرتُ فيما
أناI فيهِin it ولاnor يوماًever سُئِلْتُI was asked
أنا فيهِ ولا يوماً سُئِلْتُ
I neither chose nor was given a choice concerning what
I did not choose or was given a choice in what
I am in, nor was I ever asked.
I am in and I was never asked
ويومand when سُئلتُI was asked عنهاabout her قلتُI said شرٌan evil
ويوم سُئلتُ عنها قلتُ شرٌ
لهُit has فيin كلِّevery ماthing that يهتزُّtrembles بيْتُa home
لهُ في كلِّ ما يهتزُّ بيْتُ
And when I was asked about her, I said: An evil
And when I was asked about it I said an evil
with a home in everything that trembles.
In all that my house shakes
فيخْبوso it fades وهْجهُits glow إنif صُبَّis poured ماءٌwater
فيخْبو وهْجهُ إن صُبَّ ماءٌ
ويأتجُّand it blazes إذاwhen ماever (emphasis) صُبَّis poured زيْتُoil
ويأتجُّ إذا ما صُبَّ زيْتُ
Its glow fades if water is poured,
Its splendor wanes if water spills
and blazes whenever oil is poured.
And it warps if oil spills on it
فينجوso he escapes اليومَtoday منهاfrom her ذوone with ضجيجٍclamor
فينجو اليومَ منها ذو ضجيجٍ
ويهلكُand he perishes منwhoever بفيهِin his mouth اعتشَّhas nested صَمْتُsilence
ويهلكُ من بفيهِ اعتشَّ صَمْتُ
So today the clamorous one escapes her,
One with commotion survives today in it
while he in whose mouth silence has nested perishes.
And one who trusted in silence perishes
وحينand when سُئلتُI was asked ثانيةa second time أجبتُI answered:
وحين سُئلتُ ثانية أجبتُ:
جنانٌgardens أسّestablished فيهاwithin them العدلَjustice موتُdeath
جنانٌ أسّ فيها العدلَ موتُ
And when I was asked a second time, I answered:
And when I was asked again I answered:
Gardens where death established justice.
Gardens in which justice has died
دنتْdrew near أثمارُهاtheir fruits منto كلّevery رذلٍvile person
دنتْ أثمارُها من كلّ رذلٍ
وأعجِبْand marvel بالّذيat the one who ألهاهُdistracted him جِفتُolive pomace
وأعجِبْ بالّذي ألهاهُ جِفتُ
Their fruits draw near to every vile person,
Its fruits are far from every vile person
and marvel at the one distracted by olive pomace!
And the one fascinated by it has withered
ويقصدُand he seeks منwhoever طغىtyrannized بيعَselling الكلامwords
ويقصدُ من طغى بيعَ الكلام
وتلقىand you find الناسَpeople حيثwhere يُباعis sold نكْتُjests
وتلقى الناسَ حيث يُباع نكْتُ
The tyrant seeks to sell words,
Seeking through isolation from it how much I have lost
and you find people wherever jests are sold.
And how much I grieved in my isolation
ويومand when سُئلتُI was asked ثالثةa third time أضفتُI added
ويوم سُئلتُ ثالثة أضفتُ
ولوand even if عُرِضتْshe were offered عليّto me لماthen not أبيتُI would refuse
ولو عُرِضتْ عليّ لما أبيتُ
And when I was asked a third time, I added:
I did not inherit the idols of Thamud
Even if she were offered to me, I would not refuse.
Nor did I worship a star or see one
فمثلَfor, like نهايةٍan end حتمٍinevitable أُساقُI am driven
فمثلَ نهايةٍ حتمٍ أُساقُ
إليهاtoward her دونwithout علمٍknowledge ماnot كرهتُI hated
إليها دون علمٍ ما كرهتُ
For, as toward an inevitable end, I am driven
A prophet calls me to God
toward her without knowledge; I have not hated her.
Accepts me and forgives me if I repent
وماand not خلقُthe creation of بنيthe sons of آدمAdam إلاexcept
وما خلقُ بني آدم إلا
ليختارواso that they choose علىwith علمٍknowledge فغِرتُso I grew envious
ليختاروا على علمٍ فغِرتُ
The sons of Adam were created only
Something sweet flows through the folds of the soul
to choose knowingly; so I grew envious.
Far from the bitterness of blasphemy I have known
فسَلْso ask بالنأيِthrough distance عنْهاfrom her كمhow much خسِرتُI lost
فسَلْ بالنأيِ عنْها كم خسِرتُ
وكمand how much فيin عزلتيmy seclusion تلكَthat حَسِرتُI grieved
وكم في عزلتي تلكَ حَسِرتُ
So ask how much I lost by being far from her,
Did the soul secretly enjoy something sweet after something sweet?!
and how much I grieved in that seclusion of mine.
For I have not tasted the spirit of sweetness
فماfor not أُورثتُI was made to inherit أصنامَthe idols of ثمودThamud
فما أُورثتُ أصنامَ ثمود
وماand not بجَّلتُI venerated نجماًa star أوor رأيتُI saw
وما بجَّلتُ نجماً أو رأيتُ
For I did not inherit the idols of Thamud,
Did the Nile once say that it was the son
nor did I venerate a star, or see one,
Of the Euphrates? No, it is the son of salt I have not drunk
فيدعونيso he calls me إلىto اللهِGod نبيٌّa prophet
فيدعوني إلى اللهِ نبيٌّ
ويقبلُنيand He accepts me ويغفرُand He forgives إنْif أنَبْتُI repented
ويقبلُني ويغفرُ إنْ أنَبْتُ
so that a prophet might call me to God,
I was not given worldly knowledge
and He accept me and forgive me if I repented,
With which I could inhabit a world I did not live in
فيسْريso it flows فيthrough ثناياthe folds of الروحِthe soul حلوٌsweetness
فيسْري في ثنايا الروحِ حلوٌ
بُعيدshortly after مرارِthe bitterness of كُفرٍunbelief قدalready خبِرتُI experienced
بُعيد مرارِ كُفرٍ قد خبِرتُ
and sweetness flow through the folds of my soul
So I know Him through deeds with deeds
just after the bitterness of unbelief I had experienced.
And worship Him in an unseverable connection
أسرَّdid it delight? النفسَthe soul حلوٌsweetness بعدafter حلوٍsweetness؟!
أسرَّ النفسَ حلوٌ بعد حلوٍ؟!
فروحfor the essence of الحُلْوِsweetness فجٌunripe ماnot أكلْتُI ate
فروح الحُلْوِ فجٌ ما أكلْتُ
Did sweetness after sweetness delight the soul?!
And I was not given a lifetime whose limit is death
For sweetness's essence is unripe; I have eaten nothing.
No matter how long or brief as fortune willed
أقالdid it say? النيلُthe Nile يوماًever أنّهُthat it ابنُthe son of
أقال النيلُ يوماً أنّهُ ابنُ
الفراتthe Euphrates؟ بلrather ابنa son of ملحٍsalt ماnot شربْتُI drank
الفرات؟ بل ابن ملحٍ ما شربْتُ
Did the Nile ever say that it was the son
So I heed prohibition as virtue and race
of the Euphrates? Rather, a son of salt I have never drunk.
To where death leads if my time is wasted
ولاnor أُوتيتI was granted علماknowledge دنيويّاworldly
ولا أُوتيت علما دنيويّا
بهwith it أرتادُI explore كوناًa universe ماnot سَكنْتُI inhabited
به أرتادُ كوناً ما سَكنْتُ
Nor was I granted worldly knowledge
I did not weigh the sky when I won
with which to explore a universe I have never inhabited,
Nor did I want to cry when defeated
فأعرفهُand so I know Him منfrom الفعلِaction بفعلٍthrough an action
فأعرفهُ من الفعلِ بفعلٍ
وأعبدهُand I worship Him وصالاًin communion لاnot يُبَتُّis severed
وأعبدهُ وصالاً لا يُبَتُّ
and so know Him from action, through action,
I did not long for a beloved past
and worship Him in a communion never severed.
Nor prepare for a tomorrow and slept
ولاnor أُعطيتُI was given عمراًa life حدُّهwhose limit الموْdeath (first fragment)
ولا أُعطيتُ عمراً حدُّه الموْ
تُcompletes 'death' مهماhowever طالَit lasted أوor حاباهُfavored it بخْتُfortune
تُ مهما طالَ أو حاباهُ بخْتُ
Nor was I given a life whose limit is death,
I did not maintain kinship ties
however long it lasts or fortune favors it,
For I had no father or mother I was provided
فأستعديso I enlist النّهىreason فضلاًfor excellence وأعدوand I run
فأستعدي النّهى فضلاً وأعدو
إلىto حيثwhere المُنىhopes إنْif ضاعَwas lost وقْتُtime
إلى حيث المُنى إنْ ضاعَ وقْتُ
so I might enlist reason in pursuit of excellence, and run
Nor was I distinguished from people by deeds
to where hopes lie, if time is lost.
Or described by attributes that defined me
ولاnor قِستُI measured السّماthe sky حينwhen انتصرتُI triumphed
ولا قِستُ السّما حين انتصرتُ
ولاnor شئتُI wished for البكاweeping حينwhen هُزمتُI was defeated
ولا شئتُ البكا حين هُزمتُ
Nor did I measure the sky when I triumphed,
Did You create me without sin, my God,
nor wish to weep when I was defeated,
So I have no forgiveness I attained?
ولاnor اشتقتُI longed الىfor أمسٍa yesterday حبيبٍbeloved
ولا اشتقتُ الى أمسٍ حبيبٍ
ولاnor احتطتُI took precautions ليومfor the day of غدٍtomorrow فنِمتُthen I slept
ولا احتطتُ ليوم غدٍ فنِمتُ
nor long for a beloved yesterday,
Did You create me without bowing in prayer
nor prepare for tomorrow and then sleep.
Through which I raise my head if asked?
ولاnor رمتُI sought الجنانthe Gardens بوصلِby maintaining رحمٍkinship
ولا رمتُ الجنان بوصلِ رحمٍ
فلاfor no أبَfather ليْfor me وأمّاand a mother ماnot رُزقتُI was granted
فلا أبَ ليْ وأمّا ما رُزقتُ
Nor did I seek the Gardens by keeping ties of kinship,
So grant me, O Lord, a body
for I have no father, and was granted no mother.
That I may sin then repent if I know
ولاnor امتزتُI distinguished myself عنfrom الناسpeople بفعلٍby a deed
ولا امتزتُ عن الناس بفعلٍ
ولاnor حاطencompassed بأوصافيَaround my qualities نعتُa description
ولا حاط بأوصافيَ نعتُ
Nor did I distinguish myself from people by a deed,
nor did any description encompass my qualities.
أألقاكshall I meet You? إلهيmy God دونwithout ذنبٍa sin
أألقاك إلهي دون ذنبٍ
فلاand so not أعلوI rise بغفرانٍthrough forgiveness أُنلتُI was granted
فلا أعلو بغفرانٍ أُنلتُ
Shall I meet You, my God, without a sin,
and thus not rise through forgiveness granted me?
أألقاكshall I meet You? إلهيmy God دونwithout ركعٍbowing
أألقاك إلهي دون ركعٍ
بهby it أرفعI raise رأسيmy head انif سُئلتُI am asked
به أرفع رأسي ان سُئلتُ
Shall I meet You, my God, without bowing,
by which I might raise my head if questioned?
فمُنَّso bestow favor عليّupon me ياO ربّLord بجسمٍwith a body
فمُنَّ عليّ يا ربّ بجسمٍ
فأخطئُso I err ثمthen أرجعI return إنif علمتُI learn
فأخطئُ ثم أرجع إن علمتُ
So grant me a body, O Lord,
so I may err, then return if I learn.
Partial English translation: 62 of 70 Arabic lines translated.
Sol 6.1