وإنّيْand indeed I إذاwhen لقيتُI meet ربّيmy Lord مُكبَّلاshackled
وإنّيْ إذا لقيتُ ربّي مُكبَّلا
بوزنِwith the weight of الجبالِthe mountains والهضابِand the hills ذُنوباsins
بوزنِ الجبالِ والهضابِ ذُنوبا
And indeed, when I meet my Lord, shackled
with sins weighing as much as mountains and hills,
وصمتُand the silence of ندامتِيmy remorse برأسيْin my head مُجَلجِلاresounding
وصمتُ ندامتِي برأسيْ مُجَلجِلا
فلوso, if only أنّهُthat He يعيدُنيwould send me back فأَتوباso I might repent
فلو أنّهُ يعيدُني فأَتوبا
and my remorse's silence thundering in my head—
if only He would send me back, so I might repent!
وبعْضِيand part of me علىupon بعْضِيanother part of me يَشدُّbears down مُنكِّلاinflicting torment
وبعْضِي على بعْضِي يَشدُّ مُنكِّلا
وكلٌّand each غداhas become بيْthrough me للجحيمِfor Hell شَبُوباfuel
وكلٌّ غدا بيْ للجحيمِ شَبُوبا
And part of me bears down on another, inflicting torment,
and each, through me, has become fuel for Hell.
أمِنْis there any حُجّةٍplea ليfor me فيقومَso one might rise معلِّلاmaking excuses
أمِنْ حُجّةٍ لي فيقومَ معلِّلا
لمَنfor one who قلبُهُhis heart بالشّركِwith polytheism كانwas مَشُوْباtainted
لمَن قلبُهُ بالشّركِ كان مَشُوْبا
Is there any plea for me, that one might rise to make excuses
for one whose heart was tainted with polytheism?
وناصحُand the counselor of دنيايَmy earthly life يَمرُّpasses by مُهلِّلاproclaiming God's oneness
وناصحُ دنيايَ يَمرُّ مُهلِّلا
ومنْand the one whom عبتُI faulted بالأمسِyesterday أقلُّfewer عُيوباfaults
ومنْ عبتُ بالأمسِ أقلُّ عُيوبا
And my counselor in earthly life passes by, proclaiming God's oneness,
and the one I faulted yesterday has fewer faults.
وصاحبُand the companion of دنيايَmy earthly life جِواريْbeside me مُعذِّلاreproaching:
وصاحبُ دنيايَ جِواريْ مُعذِّلا:
فلوso, if only كنتُI was إذْwhen شمّلتَyou headed north رُحتُI went جنُوباsouth
فلو كنتُ إذْ شمّلتَ رُحتُ جنُوبا
And my companion in earthly life is beside me, reproaching me:
If only, when you headed north, I had gone south!
وميزانُand a balance of عدلٍjustice فيّwithin me يصْحوawakens مُقلقِلاunsettling
وميزانُ عدلٍ فيّ يصْحو مُقلقِلا
أتملأُcan ... fill? "دنياa world" فيon القيامةِResurrection Day كوباa cup؟
أتملأُ "دنيا" في القيامةِ كوبا؟
And a balance of justice awakens within me, shaking me:
Can a "world" fill a cup on Resurrection Day?
فياso, oh تعسَthe wretchedness of يومٍa day عشتهُI lived it مُتخيّلاimagining
فيا تعسَ يومٍ عشتهُ مُتخيّلا
بأنّيthat I نُصِرْتُI was granted victory إذْwhen ملأتُI filled جيوباpockets
بأنّي نُصِرْتُ إذْ ملأتُ جيوبا
So wretched was the day I lived imagining
that I had been granted victory when I filled pockets!
وياand oh شؤمthe ill fortune of حربٍa war عدتُI returned منهاfrom it مُكلَّلاًcrowned
ويا شؤم حربٍ عدتُ منها مُكلَّلاً
بنصرٍwith a victory لقاءَهin exchange for it خسرتُI lost حُروباwars
بنصرٍ لقاءَه خسرتُ حُروبا
And oh, the ill fortune of a war from which I returned crowned
with a victory in exchange for which I lost wars!
ولسْنٌand tongues منof النارِfire تُمدُّare stretched out كأنّهاas though they were
ولسْنٌ من النارِ تُمدُّ كأنّها
رؤوسُheads of شياطينٍdevils أبنّthey bared نُيوباfangs
رؤوسُ شياطينٍ أبنّ نُيوبا
And tongues of fire are stretched out, as though they were
devils' heads baring their fangs.
وأحمدُand Ahmad ماnot انفكَّceased لذِيْto the Possessor of العرشِthe Throne ساجِداprostrating
وأحمدُ ما انفكَّ لذِيْ العرشِ ساجِدا
وذوand the Possessor of العرشِthe Throne ماnot انفكَّceased لطهَto Taha مُجيباresponding
وذو العرشِ ما انفكَّ لطهَ مُجيبا
And Ahmad never ceases prostrating before the Lord of the Throne,
and the Lord of the Throne never ceases answering Taha.
وخوفٌand fear يداهمُsuddenly assails الرّجاءَhope مُزلزلِاshaking
وخوفٌ يداهمُ الرّجاءَ مُزلزلِا
أربّاًone Lord? عبدْتَyou worshipped أمْor عبَدْتَyou worshipped رُبوباlords؟
أربّاً عبدْتَ أمْ عبَدْتَ رُبوبا؟
And fear assails hope, shaking it:
Did you worship one Lord, or did you worship many lords?
أقولُI say وقدand already خذلْتُI failed يومِيmy day بأمسِهِthrough its yesterday
أقولُ وقد خذلْتُ يومِي بأمسِهِ
ونفسِيand my soul بظُلمِهاby wronging it وكنْتُand I was لعُوباfrivolous
ونفسِي بظُلمِها وكنْتُ لعُوبا
I say, having failed my day through its yesterday,
and my soul by wronging it, while I was frivolous:
إلهيmy God مددْتَYou extended منfrom لدنكَYour presence مودَّةًlove
إلهي مددْتَ من لدنكَ مودَّةً
فماyet not كانَwas إلّاexcept أنْthat مددْتُI extended ذُنوباsins
فما كانَ إلّا أنْ مددْتُ ذُنوبا
My God, You extended love from Your presence,
yet I extended nothing but sins.
وإنّيand indeed I لراضٍsurely content إنْif نجوتُI am saved بعفوكَby Your pardon
وإنّي لراضٍ إنْ نجوتُ بعفوكَ
وراضٍand content إذاif بُتَّis decreed العذابُtorment نصِيباas a portion
وراضٍ إذا بُتَّ العذابُ نصِيبا
And I am indeed content if I am saved by Your pardon,
and content if torment is decreed as my lot.
Sol 6.1