اناI خيالa phantom ارىI see حاليmy state بلاwithout حالa state
انا خيال ارى حالي بلا حال
وفكرةand a thought ميتةdead بلrather خاطرa notion بالِworn-out
وفكرة ميتة بل خاطر بالِ
I am a phantom; I see my state as no state at all,
I am an illusion that sees my state without a state
and a dead thought—rather, a worn-out notion.
And a dead idea, rather a thought that came to mind
ارنوI gaze إليّat myself فلاand do not الفيI find سوىother than شبحa specter
ارنو إليّ فلا الفي سوى شبح
محطمshattered لفwrapped فيin اكفانshrouds اسمالrags
محطم لف في اكفان اسمال
I gaze at myself, and find nothing but a specter,
I look to myself, so I do not find anything but a specter
shattered, wrapped in shrouds of rags,
Broken, wrapped in rough shrouds
يهتزtrembles كالريشةlike a feather الحيرىbewildered علىon وترa string
يهتز كالريشة الحيرى على وتر
مشوشdiscordant اللحنthe tune فيamid ضحكlaughter واعوالand wailing
مشوش اللحن في ضحك واعوال
trembling like a bewildered feather on a string,
It shakes like a confused feather on a string
its tune discordant, amid laughter and wailing.
With disrupted melody in laughter and howling
تنتابنيassail me حادثاتcalamities of الدهرtime عابثةplaying havoc
تنتابني حادثات الدهر عابثة
بالقلبwith the heart والفكرand thought والحوباءand the soul والبالand the mind
بالقلب والفكر والحوباء والبال
Time's calamities assail me, playing havoc
The events of fate assail me
with my heart, my thought, my soul, and my mind.
My heart, mind, loved ones and thoughts
وتزدهينيand beguile me لباناتlongings فتصرعهاthen strikes them down
وتزدهيني لبانات فتصرعها
روحيmy soul فتردىso perish لباناتيmy longings وآماليand my hopes
روحي فتردى لباناتي وآمالي
And longings beguile me, only to be struck down
And your incense makes me dizzy, so
by my soul; my longings and hopes perish.
My soul throws down my incense and hopes
ويطبيand entices خافقيmy beating heart ظبيa gazelle بهin it هيفslenderness of waist
ويطبي خافقي ظبي به هيف
فاتقيهso I ward it off بقلبwith a heart بارزexposed خالempty
فاتقيه بقلب بارز خال
And a slender-waisted gazelle entices my beating heart,
My fluttering heart is like a fleeing gazelle
so I ward it off with an exposed, empty heart.
So I protect it with an exposed heart
وتعترينيand seize me صباباتardent yearnings واخيلةand imaginings
وتعتريني صبابات واخيلة
وذكرياتand memories شبابيmy youth الغابرbygone الخاليvanished
وذكريات شبابي الغابر الخالي
And ardent yearnings and imaginings seize me,
Fantasies and memories come over me
and memories of my bygone, vanished youth.
And memories of my bygone, empty youth
اهمI intend أقبلI advance والإيمانand faith يدبرretreats بيwith me
اهم أقبل والإيمان يدبر بي
ياO حيرتيmy bewilderment بينbetween أدباريmy retreat واقباليand my advance
يا حيرتي بين أدباري واقبالي
I mean to advance, but faith carries me backward.
Worries come and faith leaves me
Oh, my bewilderment between my retreat and my advance!
Oh my confusion between my declines and rises
ولوعتيand my anguish وأمانيand the hopes of العمرa lifetime ذاهبةvanishing
ولوعتي وأماني العمر ذاهبة
شتىscattered ضحيةa victim of اهمالneglect واغفالand disregard
شتى ضحية اهمال واغفال
And my anguish, as the hopes of a lifetime fade,
My agony and the hopes of life are passing
scattered, victims of neglect and disregard!
Victims of negligence and disregard
وحسرتيand my regret وشجونand the sorrows of الدهرtime تبعثsend forth بيme
وحسرتي وشجون الدهر تبعث بي
وتقلand carry النفسthe soul منfrom حالone state إلىto حالanother state
وتقل النفس من حال إلى حال
And my regret, as time's sorrows impel me
And my regret and the sorrow of fate revive me
and carry the soul from one state to another!
And the soul moves from one state to another
والناسand people ماwhat الناسpeople ماwhat معنىthe meaning of وجودهمtheir existence
والناس ما الناس ما معنى وجودهم
ماليwhat have I وللناسand with people فيin هذيthese الدنىworlds ماليwhat have I
مالي وللناس في هذي الدنى مالي
And people—what are people? What does their existence mean?
The people, what are people, what is the meaning of their existence?
What have I to do with people in these worlds—what have I to do with them?
What is my business with people in this lowly life?
لهمthey have أخيmy brother سخافاتfollies مهلهلةthreadbare
لهم أخي سخافات مهلهلة
تبدوappear لناظرهاto their beholder فيin شرthe worst سربالgarb
تبدو لناظرها في شر سربال
They have, my brother, threadbare follies,
They have foolish delusions
appearing to their beholder in the worst of garb.
That seem in the evil of a wrapped robe
ومنand among سخافاتهمtheir follies انthat انتحىI withdraw into نفقاًa tunnel
ومن سخافاتهم ان انتحى نفقاً
موزعscattered الفكرin thought بينbetween القيلhearsay والقالand gossip
موزع الفكر بين القيل والقال
And among their follies is my retreat into a tunnel,
Among their foolishness, that if one moves through a path
my mind scattered between hearsay and gossip.
The thinker's mind distributed between saying and speaking
همthey يحسبونيconsider me مجنوناًa madman بهin him شدهbewilderment
هم يحسبوني مجنوناً به شده
ولستyet I am not إلاexcept طرازthe type of الشاعرthe poet العاليlofty
ولست إلا طراز الشاعر العالي
They consider me a madman afflicted with bewilderment,
They reckon me crazy, amazed by it
yet I am simply a poet of a lofty kind.
And I am nothing but the style of the high poet
أرىI see بعينthrough the eye of خيالthe imagination of الشعرpoetry منwith طرفa glance
أرى بعين خيال الشعر من طرف
ماwhat لاnot يرىsees عابدthe worshipper of الدينارthe dinar والمالand wealth
ما لا يرى عابد الدينار والمال
Through the eye of poetic imagination, I see at a glance
With the eye of imagination I see poetry
what the worshipper of the dinar and wealth cannot see.
From an angle that the worshiper of money does not see
وماand not جنونيmy madness إلاexcept أننيthat I am بشرhuman
وما جنوني إلا أنني بشر
أسيرI walk بينamid قذاراتfilth وأوحالand mire
أسير بين قذارات وأوحال
And my only madness is that I am human,
And my madness is just that I am human
walking amid filth and mire.
Walking among filth and swamps
أرىI see بعينيwith my eyes أشباحاًspecters مجنحةwinged
أرى بعيني أشباحاً مجنحة
فيin الليلthe night أجنحةwings تبدوappear كأذيالlike tails
في الليل أجنحة تبدو كأذيال
I see winged specters with my own eyes
With my eyes I see winged ghosts
in the night—wings that look like tails.
At night, wings that seem like tails
أرنوI gaze إليهاtoward them فلاbut do not الفيI find لهاof them أثراًa trace
أرنو إليها فلا الفي لها أثراً
فاطمئنso I feel at peace إلىwith ليليmy night واوجاليand my fears
فاطمئن إلى ليلي واوجالي
I gaze toward them, but find no trace of them,
I look to them, but do not find a trace
so I feel at peace with my night and my fears.
So I am reassured by my night and worries
حتىuntil إذاwhen حلقتsoared فيthrough الجوthe air أخيلتيmy imaginings
حتى إذا حلقت في الجو أخيلتي
وعانقتand embraced فيin دنىthe worlds of الابادeternities to come آزاليmy eternities past
وعانقت في دنى الاباد آزالي
Until, when my imaginings soared through the air
Until my fantasies flew into the air
and embraced my eternities past in the worlds of eternities to come,
And embraced the calamities of eternity in the world
رأيتI saw أشباحthe specters of ليليmy night قدhad بدتappeared صوراًas forms
رأيت أشباح ليلي قد بدت صوراً
منof العفاريتdemons فيin آلافthousands of اشكالshapes
من العفاريت في آلاف اشكال
I saw my night's specters had taken on the forms
I saw the ghosts of my night appear as images
of demons, in thousands of shapes.
Of ghosts in thousands of forms
تنسلslip فيthrough عرصاتthe clearings of الغابthe forest راقصةdancing
تنسل في عرصات الغاب راقصة
علىto عزيفeerie humming وتنعابand cawing وتصهالand neighing
على عزيف وتنعاب وتصهال
They slip, dancing, through the forest clearings,
Slinking in the courtyards of the forest, dancing
to eerie humming, cawing, and neighing,
To faint, obscure, mumbled music
وتملأand fill الجوthe air أعوالاwailing وزمجرةand growling
وتملأ الجو أعوالا وزمجرة
كأنهاas though it were زأرةa roar فيin شدقthe maw of رئبالa lion
كأنها زأرة في شدق رئبال
and fill the air with wailing and growls,
And filling the air with howls and growls
like a roar in a lion's maw.
As if it were the bellow of a snarling wolf
وتنجليand appear تارةat times فيin شكلthe form of صلصلةringing
وتنجلي تارة في شكل صلصلة
وتارةand at times تنجليappear فيin لونthe color of صلصالdry clay
وتارة تنجلي في لون صلصال
And at times they emerge in the form of ringing,
Sometimes appearing in the form of humming
and at times they emerge in the color of dry clay.
And sometimes appearing in the color of gravel
وتارةand at times تختفيvanish عنfrom ناظريmy sight فأرىso I see
وتارة تختفي عن ناظري فأرى
فيهاin them طيوفاًphantoms لآلاميof my sufferings وآماليand my hopes
فيها طيوفاً لآلامي وآمالي
And at times they vanish from my sight, so I see
And sometimes disappearing from my sight, so I see
in them phantoms of my sufferings and my hopes.
In them, ghosts of my pain and hopes
فانثنيso I turn غيرnot هيابtimid ولاnor وجلafraid
فانثني غير هياب ولا وجل
أصيحI cry out بينamong خيالاتيmy visions واغواليand my ghouls
أصيح بين خيالاتي واغوالي
So I turn, neither timid nor afraid,
So I turned without fear or tremors
I cry out among my visions and my ghouls:
Shouting amidst my imaginations and howling
ياoh غبطتيmy joy وظلامwhile the darkness of اليلthe night يحجبنيhides me
يا غبطتي وظلام اليل يحجبني
عنfrom الانامhumankind فأحياso I live بينamid ادغالthickets
عن الانام فأحيا بين ادغال
Oh, my joy, as night's darkness hides me
Oh my bliss, and the darkness of night hides me
from humankind, so I live amid thickets!
From the people, so I live amongst the bushes
أشباحspecters of ليليmy night تعاليcome اننيindeed I am شبحa specter
أشباح ليلي تعالي انني شبح
علىafter مثالكyour likeness اشكاليmy forms واحواليand my states
على مثالك اشكالي واحوالي
Specters of my night, come! I am a specter;
Ghosts of my night, come to me, I am a specter
my forms and states are patterned after you.
In my forms and states like you
أحياI live شبيهكlike you طيفاًas a phantom بينamong أخيلةimaginings
أحيا شبيهك طيفاً بين أخيلة
منof الهواءair ومنand of ماءwater وسلسالand sweet-flowing water
من الهواء ومن ماء وسلسال
I live like you, a phantom among imaginings
I live resembling you, a specter amongst fantasies
of air, and of water and sweet-flowing water,
Of air, water and chain
ومنand of سهومbrooding واناتand groans مروعةterrifying
ومن سهوم وانات مروعة
ومنand of دموعtears وآهاتand sighs واعوالand wailing
ومن دموع وآهات واعوال
and of brooding and terrifying groans,
And of terrifying groans and wailings
and of tears, sighs, and wailing,
And of tears, sighs and howling
ومنand of تسامrising عنabove الدنياthe world ومنand of صلفhaughtiness
ومن تسام عن الدنيا ومن صلف
ومنand of حنينyearning إلىfor تحطيمshattering اغلالshackles
ومن حنين إلى تحطيم اغلال
and of rising above the world, and of haughtiness,
And of aloofness from the world and defiance
and of yearning to shatter shackles.
And of yearning to break shackles
كأننيas though I were وسوادwhile the blackness of الليلnight يغمرنيengulfs me
كأنني وسواد الليل يغمرني
يمa sea خضمvast غفاdozed فيin حضنthe lap of اوشالtrickles of water
يم خضم غفا في حضن اوشال
As though I, while night's blackness engulfs me,
As if I and the blackness of night that immerses me
were a vast sea dozing in the lap of trickling waters,
Were amidst dense, deep sleep in the lap of slopes
أوor قطعةa fragment منof لهيبflame بنbetween أرديةrobes
أو قطعة من لهيب بن أردية
منof الرمادash شبيهاتsimilar باسمالto rags
من الرماد شبيهات باسمال
or a fragment of flame between robes
Or a piece of flaming brass in ashes
of ash, resembling rags.
Resembling rough shrouds
اشباحspecters of ليليmy night كفىenough روحيmy soul معذبةtormented
اشباح ليلي كفى روحي معذبة
وقدand indeed تبينتhave become clear اقواليmy words واعماليand my deeds
وقد تبينت اقوالي واعمالي
Specters of my night, enough! My soul is tormented,
Ghosts of my night, enough! My soul is tormented
and my words and deeds have become clear.
And my words and deeds have become clear
اشباحspecters of ليليmy night أرىI see نفسيmyself علانيةplainly
اشباح ليلي أرى نفسي علانية
كماjust as أراكI see you تقاسيyou endure شرthe worst of أهوالterrors
كما أراك تقاسي شر أهوال
Specters of my night, I see myself plainly,
Ghosts of my night, I openly see myself
as I see you enduring the worst of terrors.
As I see you enduring the evil of horrors
أشباحspecters of ليليmy night لماذاwhy أنتyou صامتةsilent
أشباح ليلي لماذا أنت صامتة
اتسخرينdo you mock بآلاميat my sufferings واقواليand my words
اتسخرين بآلامي واقوالي
Specters of my night, why are you silent?
Ghosts of my night, why are you silent?
Do you mock my sufferings and my words?
Do you mock my pain and words?
اشباحspecters of ليليmy night مناجاتيmy intimate communion وعاطفتيand my affection
اشباح ليلي مناجاتي وعاطفتي
قدhave هامتاboth been enamored بسناكof your radiance منذfor اجيالgenerations
قد هامتا بسناك منذ اجيال
Specters of my night, my intimate communion and my affection
Ghosts of my night, my confiding and passion
have both been enamored of your radiance for generations.
Have become infatuated with your idol since generations
اشباحspecters of ليليmy night إليكto you الشعرthe verse منfrom شبحa specter
اشباح ليلي إليك الشعر من شبح
يرنوgazes إليكat you باكبارwith esteem واجلالand reverence
يرنو إليك باكبار واجلال
Specters of my night, this verse is for you, from a specter
Ghosts of my night, to you this poetry from a specter
who gazes at you with esteem and reverence.
Who aspires to you with pride and glory
Sol 6.1