عدمتُكَmay I lose you قلباًO heart لاnot يجيبresponds وقدand already دعاcalled
عدمتُكَ قلباً لا يجيب وقد دعا
إلىto العقلreason داعٍa caller بالهدايةwith guidance أسمعاmade heard
إلى العقل داعٍ بالهداية أسمعا
May I be rid of you, heart that will not answer, though summoned
I blamed you, a heart that does not respond though one calling to reason with guidance appealed to hear.
to reason by a caller who made guidance heard.
When memory comes, reproach is of no use, and what was hoped for healing cannot help.
إذاwhen لجتpersists insistently الذكرىmemory فماthen not العذلُreproach نافعاًuseful
إذا لجت الذكرى فما العذلُ نافعاً
وماand not كانwas مرجوَّhoped-for الشِفاءِhealing لينفعاto be of use
وما كان مرجوَّ الشِفاءِ لينفعا
When memory grows relentless, reproach is of no use,
Blame only awakens anguish and sorrow, renewing in the heart a worn out memory.
nor was it expected to bring healing, that it might help.
The wounds of the heart flow when passion stirs up with it the hidden disease, so it hurts more.
وماand not اللومblame إلاexcept باعثa stirrer of الوجدpassionate longing والأسىand sorrow
وما اللوم إلا باعث الوجد والأسى
يجددrenews ذكراًa memory فيin الفؤادthe heart ملوِّعاtormenting
يجدد ذكراً في الفؤاد ملوِّعا
Blame only stirs passionate longing and sorrow,
And if the lover's heart is not healed, it is afflicted, but in blame meets its demise.
renewing a tormenting memory within the heart.
I have lost the hopes of youth, leaving my heart faint and fragmented.
تسيلbleed جرحاتُwounds الفؤادِthe heart إذاwhen الهوىpassion
تسيل جرحاتُ الفؤادِ إذا الهوى
أثارroused بهwithin it الداءَthe malady الدفينburied فَأَوجعاso it caused pain
أثار به الداءَ الدفين فَأَوجعا
The heart's wounds bleed whenever passion
And I spent my life lost in pain, so for a life spent in pain, lost.
rouses the buried malady within it and brings pain.
I wanted in the world my complaints, and they echo in the world to me, lamenting.
وإنand if لمdid not يُصبfind قلبُthe heart المحَبthe lover (vocalization uncertain) شِفاءَهits cure
وإن لم يُصب قلبُ المحَب شِفاءَه
أصابfound ولكنbut فيin الملامةreproach مصرعاa fatal downfall
أصاب ولكن في الملامة مصرعا
And if the lover's heart finds no cure,
Indeed, I had with the beloved a trust - my heart - in secret love was deposited.
it finds, instead, a fatal downfall in reproach.
Yet that trust was not kept, but it became for its loss, my soul cries out, horrified.
فقدتُI lost أمانيَّthe hopes of الشبابyouth فخلَّفتso they left behind
فقدتُ أمانيَّ الشباب فخلَّفت
فؤاديmy heart لكنbut خافتاًfaint متقطعاtorn apart
فؤادي لكن خافتاً متقطعا
I lost the hopes of youth, so they left
And it composes this poetry in which grief flows, as the two eyes pour out tears in sorrow.
my heart behind—but faint and torn apart.
Some souls were created ambitious for light - if missing it, they will not enjoy.
وألفيتُand I found عمريmy life فيin الوجيعةanguish ضائعاًwasted
وألفيتُ عمري في الوجيعة ضائعاً
فللَهso, to God عمرٌa lifetime فيin الوجيعةanguish ضُيَّعاwas squandered
فللَه عمرٌ في الوجيعة ضُيَّعا
And I found my life wasted in anguish;
And it pains them in their dawns and evenings, the people closing their minds, refusing,
what a lifetime, by God, wasted in anguish!
And darkening the feeling of hearts with hardness, so you do not see in them a place for softness,
أردتI wished فيin الدنياthe world شكاتيmy complaint وإنهاand indeed it
أردت في الدنيا شكاتي وإنها
ترددechoes فيin الدنياthe world عليَّback upon me التَفَجُّعاlamentation
تردد في الدنيا عليَّ التَفَجُّعا
I wished to voice my complaint in the world, and it
Except some people suffer from some of them, and the most suffering of them are the all-encompassing conscious ones.
echoes lamentation back upon me throughout the world.
I braved the terrors of life for a purpose that I remained pursuing.
لقدindeed كانthere was ليfor me عندwith الحبيبthe beloved وديعةٌa trust
لقد كان لي عند الحبيب وديعةٌ
هيit القلبُthe heart فيin السرsecrecy الهوىpassion كانhad been مودَعاlodged
هي القلبُ في السر الهوى كان مودَعا
Indeed, I had a trust in the beloved's keeping:
And I pleaded to God, praise be to Him, but God refused me in its existence to intercede.
it was the heart, where passion had been secretly lodged.
I spanned a lifetime over it - if after it there was scope, I would have treated it with latitude.
فماso not حُفِظَتwas preserved تلكthat الأمانةُtrust بلrather غدتbecame
فما حُفِظَت تلك الأمانةُ بل غدت
لِضَيعَتِهاbecause of its loss نفسيmy soul تضجcries out تَفَزُّعاin terror
لِضَيعَتِها نفسي تضج تَفَزُّعا
That trust was not kept; instead,
I rejoiced and went easy - not from it am I winner, nor did I tread toward me to gain, driven.
my soul has come to cry out in terror at its loss,
Is the failure of effort in life an inseparable companion, and the gloom of a breast does not abandon one who sought?
وتنظمand it composes هذاthis الشعرpoetry يجريflows بهthrough it الأسىsorrow
وتنظم هذا الشعر يجري به الأسى
كماas تسكبpour out العينانthe two eyes فيin الحزنgrief أدمعاtears
كما تسكب العينان في الحزن أدمعا
and composes this poetry, through which sorrow flows,
And the frustration of hopes, and the dashing of desires, and the distancing of causes that bring one closer to hope?
as both eyes pour out tears in grief.
They saw for ignorance prominence and glamor, and they raised it between them, so it was raised.
لقدindeed خُلِقَتwere created بعضُsome النفوسsouls طموحةًaspiring
لقد خُلِقَت بعضُ النفوس طموحةً
إلىtoward النورthe light إنif تفقدهthey lose it لنwill not تتمتعاfind enjoyment
إلى النور إن تفقده لن تتمتعا
Some souls were indeed created to aspire
And they inverted the meaning of truth, so it was inverted, and the face of life felt safe, it turned into a horror.
toward light; if they lose it, they will find no joy.
And they lied until lying spread, and they claimed, so the ignorant one who claimed was convinced of success.
ويؤلمهاand pains them فيin صبحهاtheir morning ومسائهاand their evening
ويؤلمها في صبحها ومسائها
منfrom الناسpeople إغلاقُthe shutting of العقولminds تَمنُّعاin stubborn refusal
من الناس إغلاقُ العقول تَمنُّعا
And what pains them, morning and evening,
And they ridiculed the truth, so it turned away angry, and they shook the pillar of guidance, so it shook.
is people's closing of their minds in stubborn refusal,
And I was only one among a group, when alone they gathered against it.
وإظلامُand the darkening of إحساسfeeling القلوبhearts صلابةًthrough hardness
وإظلامُ إحساس القلوب صلابةً
فلستso you do not ترىsee فيهاin them إلىtoward اللينgentleness موضعاa place
فلست ترى فيها إلى اللين موضعا
and the darkening of hearts' feeling through hardness;
So I became in the eyes of the heavens a scholar, and in the eyes of these people, an outcast lost one.
so you see in them no room for gentleness.
And I walked, and in my heart were raging storms that make the gardens of life in the chest a ruin.
إلاexcept إنindeed بعضsome الناسpeople يشقىsuffers ببعضهمbecause of some of them
إلا إن بعض الناس يشقى ببعضهم
وأشقاهمand their most wretched مستوعبٌone who fully comprehends ماwhat بهمin them وعىhe has perceived
وأشقاهم مستوعبٌ ما بهم وعى
Yet, indeed, some people suffer because of others,
And if my beloved were safe, I would have been willingly, nay even more, obedient.
and the most wretched of them fully comprehends what he has perceived in them.
But she turned on me estranged, and turned on my heart to split.
تَقحَّمتُI plunged into أهوالthe terrors of الحياةlife لغايةٍfor a goal
تَقحَّمتُ أهوال الحياة لغايةٍ
بقيتُI continued إلىtoward تحقيقهاits fulfillment متتبعاpursuing
بقيتُ إلى تحقيقها متتبعا
I plunged into life's terrors for a goal
So we were both in life disappointed, seeing our unity after mending, crack.
whose fulfillment I kept pursuing.
وشفَّعتand I sought intercession from فيهاfor it اللَهGod سبحانهglory be to Him وقدand indeed
وشفَّعت فيها اللَه سبحانه وقد
أبىrefused اللَهُGod ليfor me فيin كونهاits coming into being أنto يُشَفِّعاintercede
أبى اللَهُ لي في كونها أن يُشَفِّعا
And I sought God's intercession for it—glory be to Him—yet
God refused to intercede for me in bringing it into being.
طويتُI spent عليهاon it العمرlife لوif كانthere were بعدهafter it
طويتُ عليها العمر لو كان بعده
مجالٌscope لهاfor it عالجتُهI would have worked on it متوسعاexpansively
مجالٌ لها عالجتُه متوسعا
I spent my lifetime on it; had there been beyond that life
further scope for it, I would have worked at it more expansively.
فرحتُso I departed وراحتand it departed لاnot بهاthrough it أناI غانمٌgaining
فرحتُ وراحت لا بها أنا غانمٌ
ولاnor سلكتit took نحويtoward me إلىto الغنمgain مهيعاa broad, clear road
ولا سلكت نحوي إلى الغنم مهيعا
So I departed, and it departed; I gained nothing through it,
nor did it take toward me a clear road to gain.
أَإِخفاقُis failure سعيٍstriving فيin الحياةlife ملازمٌconstantly accompanying
أَإِخفاقُ سعيٍ في الحياة ملازمٌ
وغُلَّةُand a burning anguish صدرٍthe breast لاnot تفارقleaves منwhoever سعىhas striven
وغُلَّةُ صدرٍ لا تفارق من سعى
Must failure cling to striving in life,
and a burning in the breast never leave the one who strives,
وتصريمُand the severing of آمالٍhopes وتطيوحُand the flinging away of رغبةٍdesire
وتصريمُ آمالٍ وتطيوحُ رغبةٍ
وتبعيدُand the distancing of أسبابٍmeans تقربbring nearer مطمعاa desired goal
وتبعيدُ أسبابٍ تقرب مطمعا
and hopes be severed, and desire be flung aside,
and means that bring a desired goal nearer be driven far away?
همthey أبصرواthey saw للجهلfor ignorance جاهاًprestige ورونقاًand splendor
هم أبصروا للجهل جاهاً ورونقاً
وهمand they رفعوهthey raised it بينهمamong them فترفعاso it rose in pride
وهم رفعوه بينهم فترفعا
They saw in ignorance prestige and splendor,
and they raised it among them, so it rose in pride.
وهمand they قلبواthey reversed معنىthe meaning of الححىreason (apparent typo) فتقلبتso it was overturned
وهم قلبوا معنى الححى فتقلبت
وآمنُand the safest وجهface العمرlife أصبحbecame مفزعاterrifying
وآمنُ وجه العمر أصبح مفزعا
And they reversed the meaning of reason, so things were overturned,
and life's safest face became terrifying.
وهمand they كذبواthey lied حتىuntil فشاspread الكذبfalsehood وادعواand they made claims
وهم كذبوا حتى فشا الكذب وادعوا
فَأَيقنso he became certain بالنجحof success الغبيُّthe fool الذيwho ادعىmade a claim
فَأَيقن بالنجح الغبيُّ الذي ادعى
And they lied until falsehood spread, and made their claims,
so the fool who made such claims became certain of success.
وهمand they هزأواthey mocked بالحقat the truth فارتدَّso it recoiled ساخطاًin anger
وهم هزأوا بالحق فارتدَّ ساخطاً
وهمand they زعزعواthey shook ركنَthe pillar of الهدىguidance فتزعزعاso it was shaken
وهم زعزعوا ركنَ الهدى فتزعزعا
And they mocked the truth, so it recoiled in anger,
and they shook the pillar of guidance, so it was shaken.
وماand not كنتُI was إلاexcept واحداًone فيin جماعةٍa group
وما كنتُ إلا واحداً في جماعةٍ
علىupon نفسهhimself إذwhen افردوهthey isolated him تجمعاhe drew together
على نفسه إذ افردوه تجمعا
And I was only one among a group,
who drew in upon himself when they left him alone.
فأًبحتُso I became (apparent typo) فيin عينthe eye of السمواتthe heavens عالَماًa world
فأًبحتُ في عين السموات عالَماً
وفيand in عينthe eye of هذاthis الناسpeople فرداىًa lone individual (apparent typo) مضيَّعاneglected
وفي عين هذا الناس فرداىً مضيَّعا
So in the heavens' eyes I became a world,
and in these people's eyes, a lone, neglected individual.
وسرتُand I journeyed وفيand in قلبيmy heart عواصفُstorms جمةٌmany
وسرتُ وفي قلبي عواصفُ جمةٌ
تُعيدُturn into رياضَthe gardens of العمرlife فيin الصدرthe breast بلقعاa barren waste
تُعيدُ رياضَ العمر في الصدر بلقعا
And I went on, with many storms within my heart,
turning life's gardens within my breast into a barren waste.
ولوand had سالمتmade peace سلمىSalma لكنتُI would have been بنانهاher fingertips
ولو سالمت سلمى لكنتُ بنانها
طواعيةًwillingly بلrather ربماperhaps كنتُI would have been أطوعاmore obedient
طواعيةً بل ربما كنتُ أطوعا
And had Salma made peace with me, I would have been her fingertips,
willingly—indeed, perhaps I would have been more obedient still.
ولكنهاbut she آلتswore عليَّagainst me قطيعةًestrangement
ولكنها آلت عليَّ قطيعةً
وآلتand she swore علىagainst قلبيmy heart بأَنthat يتقطعاit be torn apart
وآلت على قلبي بأَن يتقطعا
But she swore to sever ties with me,
and swore that my heart should be torn apart.
فبتناso we became كلاناboth of us فيin الحياةlife مخيباًdisappointed
فبتنا كلانا في الحياة مخيباً
يرىsees شملَهhis unity بعدafter التئامٍcoming together تصدَّعاsplit apart
يرى شملَه بعد التئامٍ تصدَّعا
So we both lived on, disappointed,
each seeing his unity shattered after it had come together.
Partial English translation: 31 of 62 Arabic lines translated.
Sol 6.1