شربتI drank بالمكارهamid hardships فيduring نهاريmy day
شربت بالمكاره في نهاري
وبالغيظand amid anger الممضّsearing علىin نظامorderly succession
وبالغيظ الممضّ على نظام
I drank amid hardships during my day,
I drank bitterness by day,
And amid searing anger, in steady succession.
And boiling rage against fate's way.
وأهوىand I long for الليلthe night أنto يأتيcome فأكفىso I may be spared
وأهوى الليل أن يأتي فأكفى
لأنbecause الروحthe soul تجلسsettles فيwithin العظامthe bones
لأن الروح تجلس في العظام
And I long for night to come, so I may be spared,
I long for night to make life's grief abate,
For the soul settles within the bones.
For the soul dwells amid the bones' estate.
فأحلمthen I dream بالمخاوفof terrors فيduring نهاريmy day
فأحلم بالمخاوف في نهاري
كماjust as قدalready كنتI had been منfrom قبلbefore المنامsleep
كما قد كنت من قبل المنام
Then I dream of terrors during my day,
By day I dream of the fears I await,
Just as I had been before sleep.
As I did before my dreamful state.
فماso not أخلوam I free علىin الحالينthe two states مماfrom what
فما أخلو على الحالين مما
ثغمّunclear as written; likely 'distresses' ولوeven if ثملتI become drunk منon المدامwine
ثغمّ ولو ثملت من المدام
So in neither state am I free from what
In neither condition can I feel sate,
Distresses me [word unclear], even if I become drunk on wine.
Be it joy I take or sorrow's weight.
وأرزاقand the livelihoods البريّةof humankind بينbetween حلّthe lawful
وأرزاق البريّة بين حلّ
ومشتبهand the doubtful ومحظورand forbidden المرامto seek
ومشتبه ومحظور المرام
And humankind's livelihoods lie between the lawful
The lawful sustenance midst the two
And the doubtful, and what is forbidden to seek.
Is obscure and not what I pursue.
فلاso no فيin الحلthe lawful ليfor me حظّshare يرجّىto be hoped for
فلا في الحل لي حظّ يرجّى
ولاnor متّعتwas I granted enjoyment منby وجهway of الحرامthe forbidden
ولا متّعت من وجه الحرام
Yet in the lawful I have no share to hope for,
No fortune in the lawful do I accrue,
Nor have I been granted enjoyment by unlawful means.
No joy either from the unlawful view.
فلاso not أدريdo I know أهذاis this منdue to نحوسيmy ill fortune
فلا أدري أهذا من نحوسي
أمor الأيامthe days حربat war للكرامwith the noble
أم الأيام حرب للكرام
So I do not know: is this due to my ill fortune,
I know not if this be from my rue
Or are the days at war with the noble?
Or if days make war 'gainst the true.
Sol 6.1