وَصَلتُI kept the bond فَلَمّاthen when لَمdid not أَرَsee الوَصلَcloseness نافِعيbenefiting me
وَصَلتُ فَلَمّا لَم أَرَ الوَصلَ نافِعي
وَقَرَّبتُand I offered قُرباناًan offering فَلَمbut not يُتَقَبَّلِbe accepted
وَقَرَّبتُ قُرباناً فَلَم يُتَقَبَّلِ
I kept our bond; when I saw that closeness did me no good,
and the offering I made was not accepted,
بَلَوتُكِI tested you بِالهِجرانِthrough estrangement عَمداًdeliberately وَإِنَّنيand indeed I
بَلَوتُكِ بِالهِجرانِ عَمداً وَإِنَّني
عَلىupon العَهدِthe pledge لَمdid not أَنقُضbreak وَلَمand did not أَتَبَدَّلِchange
عَلى العَهدِ لَم أَنقُض وَلَم أَتَبَدَّلِ
I deliberately tested you with estrangement, though I
remained true to the pledge, neither breaking it nor changing.
وَعَذَّبتُand I tormented قَلبيmy heart بِالتَجَلُّدِwith forced fortitude صادِياًthirsting
وَعَذَّبتُ قَلبي بِالتَجَلُّدِ صادِياً
إِلَيكِfor you وَإِنand although لَمdid not يَصفُrun clear ليfor me مِنكِfrom you مَنهَليmy wellspring
إِلَيكِ وَإِن لَم يَصفُ لي مِنكِ مَنهَلي
And I tormented my heart by steeling myself, thirsting
for you, though my wellspring from you did not run clear.
فَلَمّاthen when نَقَلتُI moved الدَمعَthe tears مِنfrom مُستَقَرِّهِtheir resting place
فَلَمّا نَقَلتُ الدَمعَ مِن مُستَقَرِّهِ
إِلىto ساحَةٍan expanse مِنof خَدِّa cheek حَرّانِone burning with grief مُعوِلِwailing
إِلى ساحَةٍ مِن خَدِّ حَرّانِ مُعوِلِ
Then, when I sent tears from their resting place
onto the expanse of a grief-seared, wailing man's cheek,
وَأَظلَمَتِand grew dark الدُنياthe world عَلَيَّfor me بِرَحبِهاdespite its vastness
وَأَظلَمَتِ الدُنيا عَلَيَّ بِرَحبِها
وَقَلقَلَنيand shook me الهِجرانُestrangement كُلَّevery مُقَلقَلِkind of agitation
وَقَلقَلَني الهِجرانُ كُلَّ مُقَلقَلِ
and the world grew dark for me, for all its vastness,
and estrangement shook me utterly,
عَتَبتُI reproached عَلىupon نَفسيmyself وَأَقبَلتُand I came تائِباًrepentant
عَتَبتُ عَلى نَفسي وَأَقبَلتُ تائِباً
إِلَيكِto you مَتابَthe repentance of المُذنِبِthe sinner المُتَنَصِّلِseeking to be excused
إِلَيكِ مَتابَ المُذنِبِ المُتَنَصِّلِ
I reproached myself and came repentant
to you, with the repentance of a sinner seeking pardon.
فَماbut not زِدتِنيyou gave me more إِلّاexcept صُدوداًrejection وَغِلظَةًand harshness
فَما زِدتِني إِلّا صُدوداً وَغِلظَةً
وَقَدand indeed كُنتُI had been عَنaway from دارِthe abode of الهَوانhumiliation بِمَعزِلِat a distance
وَقَد كُنتُ عَن دارِ الهَوان بِمَعزِلِ
But you gave me only more rejection and harshness,
though I had been far from the abode of humiliation.
فَوَاللَهِso, by God ماnot أَدريI know أَأَشكوكِshall I complain of you? دائِباًunceasingly
فَوَاللَهِ ما أَدري أَأَشكوكِ دائِباً
لِآخِرِfor the last of ماwhat أَولَيتِنيyou bestowed on me أَوor لِأَوَّلِfor the first
لِآخِرِ ما أَولَيتِني أَو لِأَوَّلِ
So, by God, I do not know: should I complain of you unceasingly
for the last of what you bestowed on me, or the first?
Sol 6.1