رجعتI returned منfrom المطافthe rounds بلاwithout نصيبٍa share
رجعت من المطاف بلا نصيبٍ
وكانand was بهin it اعتداديmy self-esteem واعتزازيand my pride
وكان به اعتدادي واعتزازي
I returned from my rounds empty-handed,
I returned from pilgrimage with no gain
and in them lay my self-esteem and pride.
Though I held it in high esteem and pride
وكمand how often جاهدتُI strove فيهin it بكلwith every فتوىlegal opinion
وكم جاهدتُ فيه بكل فتوى
فماso not أغنىavailed ارتجاليmy improvising وارتجازيand my rajaz recitation
فما أغنى ارتجالي وارتجازي
And how often I strove there, with every legal opinion,
And how I strove for it with every effort
yet my improvising and rajaz recitation availed me nothing.
Yet my improvisation and composition were of no use
وضاعتand was lost فرصةthe chance التيسيرof relief منيfrom me
وضاعت فرصة التيسير مني
فلاso neither هيit فيin الوجودexistence ولاnor الجوازpossibility
فلا هي في الوجود ولا الجواز
And the chance of relief slipped away from me,
The opportunity for facilitation slipped by me
so it is neither real nor possible.
It exists no more, neither in reality nor hypothetically
وفاتتand passed by شرعةthe law التخفيضof reduction دينيmy debt
وفاتت شرعة التخفيض ديني
لأنbecause ضمانهits security الرهنthe pledge الحيازيpossessory
لأن ضمانه الرهن الحيازي
And the debt-reduction law passed my debt by,
The deadline for reducing my debt has passed
because its security is a possessory pledge.
For its guarantee was possessory lien
وكنتand I was أظنthinking ليfor me فيهاunder it امتيازاًa privilege
وكنت أظن لي فيها امتيازاً
فكانتso became محنةthe ordeal الرفضof rejection امتيازيmy privilege
فكانت محنة الرفض امتيازي
And I had thought I had a privilege under it,
I thought I had a special dispensation
but the ordeal of rejection became my privilege.
But the refusal was my special distinction
أشدُmore violent منthan الزلازلearthquakes فيin عنائيmy distress
أشدُ من الزلازل في عنائي
علىupon الأرضthe earth اضطرابيmy trembling واهتزازيand my shaking
على الأرض اضطرابي واهتزازي
More violent than earthquakes, in my distress,
More devastating than earthquakes in my trouble
are my trembling and shaking upon the earth.
Is my turmoil and shaking on earth
ولوand if رفعhad lifted القضاءُthe courts العبءthe burden عنيfrom me
ولو رفع القضاءُ العبء عني
لكنتI would be الآنnow فيin أرضthe land الحجازof the Hijaz
لكنت الآن في أرض الحجاز
And had the courts lifted the burden from me,
Had destiny lightened the burden from me
I would now be in the land of the Hijaz.
I would now be in the land of Hejaz
ولستand I am not بخائفafraid of غاراتraids جيشan army
ولست بخائف غارات جيش
عليّagainst me مخافتيmy fear منْof إشكنازيIshkenazi
عليّ مخافتي منْ إشكنازي
I do not fear an army's raids
I fear not raids of an army upon me
against me as much as I fear Ishkenazi.
My fear is only of my creditor
وماand not أناI فيin زمانيmy time بلشفيٌّa Bolshevik
وما أنا في زماني بلشفيٌّ
ولاnor أناI بينamong فاشيٍّa fascist ونازيand a Nazi
ولا أنا بين فاشيٍّ ونازي
And in my time I am no Bolshevik,
I am no Bolshevik in my time
nor am I among fascists and Nazis.
Nor am I Fascist or Nazi
وماand not أناI منamong غلاةthe extremists الرأيof opinion فيهin it
وما أنا من غلاة الرأي فيه
ولاnor أناI فيهin it منof ذاكthat الطرازkind
ولا أنا فيه من ذاك الطراز
And I am not among this age's extremists in thought,
Nor am I extreme in my view of it
nor am I in it of that stamp.
Nor am I of that ilk and type
Sol 6.1