قَدْ خِفْتُ أَنْ أَبْقَى وَلاَ يَبْقَى لِي

قَدْ خِفْتُ أَنْ أَبْقَى وَلاَ يَبْقَى لِي

فَضْلُكَ يَا ذَا الْفَضْلِ وَالنَّوَالِ

فَضْلُكَ يَا ذَا الْفَضْلِ وَالنَّوَالِ

I have feared that I might live on, yet be left without

I fear that I may remain while no merit of yours remains for me,

I have feared that I might live on, while there no longer remains for me

your grace, O possessor of grace and bounty,

O You of bounty and fortune!

Your grace, O Possessor of bounty and bestowal;

فَأَجْتَنِي الإِذْلاَلَ مِنْ إِقْلاَلِي

فَأَجْتَنِي الإِذْلاَلَ مِنْ إِقْلاَلِي

وَأَمْتَرِي سَحَائِبَ الإِعْلاَلِ

وَأَمْتَرِي سَحَائِبَ الإِعْلاَلِ

and so reap humiliation from my poverty,

So spare me from the disgrace of my shortcoming,

So I would reap humiliation from my utter destitution,

and draw rain from the clouds of illness,

And send to me clouds of exaltation,

And I would draw forth the dark clouds of affliction,

مُلِثَّةً بِوَبْلِهَا الْهَطَّالِ

مُلِثَّةً بِوَبْلِهَا الْهَطَّالِ

وَأَصْطَلِي بِجَُِذْوَةِ الْبَلْبَالِ

وَأَصْطَلِي بِجَُِذْوَةِ الْبَلْبَالِ

unceasing in their torrential downpour,

Saturated with pouring rain,

Pouring down unceasingly with their torrential rains,

and be scorched by the ember of anguish.

And I seek warmth in blazing embers,

And I would burn in the embers of deep anxiety;

إِذَنْ يُضَاعَفُ اشْتِعَالُ الْبَالِ

إِذَنْ يُضَاعَفُ اشْتِعَالُ الْبَالِ

فَأَسْتَفِيدُ خَيْبَةَ الآمَالِ

فَأَسْتَفِيدُ خَيْبَةَ الآمَالِ

Then the burning of the mind is doubled,

Then the burning anguish becomes more intense,

Then the burning of my mind would be redoubled,

so I gain the frustration of hopes,

So I gain the frustration of hopes.

And I would harvest the bitter disappointment of my hopes,

فَأَشْتَرِي الإِدْبَارَ بِالإِقْبَالِ

فَأَشْتَرِي الإِدْبَارَ بِالإِقْبَالِ

وَأَرْتَدِي مَلاَحِفَ الضَّلاَلِ

وَأَرْتَدِي مَلاَحِفَ الضَّلاَلِ

so I buy retreat at the price of advance,

Thus I buy retreat for attack,

Trading my prosperity for wretched decline,

and don the cloaks of error,

And I don the garments of error,

And draping myself in the cloaks of misguidance,

فَأَنْتَهِي لِطِينَةِ الْخَبَالِ

فَأَنْتَهِي لِطِينَةِ الْخَبَالِ

بِالْمُقْتَنَى مِنْ سَيِّءِ الأَعْمَالِ

بِالْمُقْتَنَى مِنْ سَيِّءِ الأَعْمَالِ

so I come at last to the mire of corruption,

So I end up with the clay of disgrace,

Until I end up in the mire of utter perdition,

through the evil deeds I have amassed.

With the purchased evil deeds.

Through the accumulation of my evil deeds.

سِتْرَكَ يَا ذَا الْحِلْمِ وَالإِجْمَالِ

سِتْرَكَ يَا ذَا الْحِلْمِ وَالإِجْمَالِ

Grant me your protection, O possessor of forbearance and graciousness!

Veil me, O You of forbearance and glory!

I beg Your protective veil, O Possessor of clemency and grace!