أتسائلينَare you asking?: منwho التيthe woman whom
أتسائلينَ: من التي
آثرتُI preferred؟ أوor أينَwhere اشتياقيmy longing؟
آثرتُ؟ أو أينَ اشتياقي؟
Are you asking who she is
You ask me: Who is she
whom I preferred, or where my longing lies?
That I have chosen? Or where is my longing?
وترددينand you repeat: ألستَare you not? منthe one who
وترددين: ألستَ من
أبدعتyou created صحويmy wakefulness وائتلاقيand my radiance؟
أبدعت صحوي وائتلاقي؟
And you repeat: “Are you not the one
And you repeat: Am I not the one
who created my wakefulness and my radiance,
Who inspired my awakening and creativity?
شطآنshores عينيmy eyes، اخضراgreenness (word beginning)
شطآن عيني، اخضرا
رُcompletion of 'greenness' مواسميmy seasons دِفئيmy warmth مذاقيmy taste
رُ مواسمي دِفئي مذاقي
the shores of my eyes, the greenness
The delight of my eyes, the green
of my seasons, my warmth, my taste,
Of my seasons, the warmth of my taste
بستانgarden وجهيmy face، أمسياevenings (word beginning)
بستان وجهي، أمسيا
تُcompletion of 'evenings' جدائليmy braids ضحواتُmornings ساقيmy legs؟
تُ جدائلي ضحواتُ ساقي؟
the garden of my face, the evenings
The orchard of my face, the evenings
of my braids, the mornings of my legs?
Were my braids the gifts of my water bearer?
سميتنيyou named me وهجَglow الضُحىthe midmorning
سميتني وهجَ الضُحى
قمراًa moon يَجِلstands exalted علىabove المحاقِthe moon's dark phase
قمراً يَجِل على المحاقِ
You named me the glow of midmorning,
You called me the glow of the morning
a moon exalted above the dark of waning,
A moon that shines on the horizon
بوحَconfidences الزنابقِthe lilies والوروand the roses (word beginning)
بوحَ الزنابقِ والورو
دِcompletion of 'roses' إلىto النسيماتِthe breezes الرقاقِdelicate
دِ إلى النسيماتِ الرقاقِ
the confidences of lilies and roses
With the fragrance of violets and roses
to the delicate breezes.
Carried on the gentle breezes
أنسيتنيyou made me forget بشريتيmy humanity
أنسيتني بشريتي
ونسيتand you forgot بالأرضto the earth التصاقيmy attachment
ونسيت بالأرض التصاقي
You made me forget my humanity,
You made me forget my humanity
and you forgot my bond with the earth.
And forget my earthly attachments
وذهبتand you left ياO أغلىdearest مراmirrors (word beginning)
وذهبت يا أغلى مرا
ياcompletion of 'mirrors' الحُسنbeauty، أوor أحلىsweetest نِفاقhypocrisy
يا الحُسن، أو أحلى نِفاق
And you left, O dearest mirrors
And you went, O most precious sight
of beauty—or sweetest hypocrisy.
Or sweetest hypocrisy
أتعودwill you return? ليto me… تبكيyou weep for غروsetting (word beginning)
أتعود لي... تبكي غرو
بيmy (completes 'my setting') أوor تُغنيyou sing لانبثاقيfor my emergence؟
بي أو تُغني لانبثاقي؟
Will you return to me, weeping for my setting,
Will you return to me...crying my absence
or singing for my rising?”
Or sing for my emergence?
لنwill not تعدميyou lack غيريsomeone other than me ولنand will not
لن تعدمي غيري ولن
تلقيyou find كصدقيlike my sincerity واختلاقيand my invention
تلقي كصدقي واختلاقي
You will not lack others, nor will you
You will not lack anyone but me or
find the like of my sincerity and my invention.
Find sincerity and devotion like mine
قدindeed كنتI was موثوقاًbound إليـto (word beginning)
قد كنت موثوقاً إليـ
ـكِyou (feminine) مَنwho التيthe woman who قطعتshe cut وثاقيmy bonds
ـكِ مَن التي قطعت وثاقي
I had indeed been bound to
I was one you could trust
you; who was the woman who cut my bonds?
Who did you sever ties with?
لماwhen وجدتI found القربcloseness منـfrom (word beginning)
لما وجدت القرب منـ
ـكِyou (feminine) أمرّmore bitter منthan سهرsleeplessness الفراقِseparation
ـكِ أمرّ من سهر الفراقِ
When I found closeness to
When closeness to you
you more bitter than separation's sleepless nights,
Seemed worse than the wakefulness of separation
آثرتI preferred حزنsorrow البعدdistance عنـfrom (word beginning)
آثرت حزن البعد عنـ
ـكِyou (feminine) علىover مراراتbitter pains التلاقيmeeting
ـكِ على مرارات التلاقي
I preferred the sorrow of distance from
I chose the sorrow of distance from you
you over the bitter pains of meeting.
Over the bitterness of meeting
وبدونand without توديعa farewell ذهبـwent (verb beginning)
وبدون توديع ذهبـ
ـتُI (verb ending) كماas أتيتُI came بلاwithout اتفاقِagreement
ـتُ كما أتيتُ بلا اتفاقِ
And without a farewell, I left,
And without saying goodbye I left
as I had come, without agreement.
As I came, without agreement
ونسيتand I forgot بيتكyour house والطريـand the road (word beginning)
ونسيت بيتك والطريـ
ـقَcompletion of 'the road' نسيتُI forgot رائحةَscent الزقاقِthe alley
ـقَ نسيتُ رائحةَ الزقاقِ
And I forgot your house and the road;
I forgot your house and the road
I forgot the alley's scent.
I forgot the smell of the alley
لمdid not أدرِI know منfrom أينwhere انطلقـset out (verb beginning)
لم أدرِ من أين انطلقـ
ـتُI (verb ending) ومنand whom لقيتُI met لدىupon انطلاقيmy departure
ـتُ ومن لقيتُ لدى انطلاقي
I did not know where I had set
I did not know where I embarked from
out, or whom I met when I departed.
And who I met upon my departure
انسقتI drifted لاnot أدريI know الطريـthe road (word beginning)
انسقت لا أدري الطريـ
ـقَcompletion of 'the road' ولاnor الطريقُthe road يعيunderstands انسياقيmy drifting
ـقَ ولا الطريقُ يعي انسياقي
I drifted on, not knowing the
I flowed not knowing the way
road, nor did the road understand my drifting.
Nor did the way know my drifting
حتىeven المصابيحُthe lamps التيthat
حتى المصابيحُ التي
حوليaround me تعانيsuffer كاختناقيlike my suffocation
حولي تعاني كاختناقي
Even the lamps that
Even the lamps around me
surround me suffer, choking as I do.
Suffer like my stifling
كانwas اللقاءُthe meeting بلاwithout وجوfaces (word beginning)
كان اللقاءُ بلا وجو
هـcompletion of 'faces' ٍوالفراقُand the parting بلاwithout مآقيinner corners of the eyes
هـ ٍوالفراقُ بلا مآقي
The meeting was without faces,
The meeting was without purpose
and the parting without tear ducts.
And the parting without consequence
فلتتركينيso leave me للنوىto separation
فلتتركيني للنوى
أظماI thirst وأمتصand I suck in احتراقيmy burning
أظما وأمتص احتراقي
So leave me to separation,
So leave me to my solitude
to thirst and drink in my burning.
As I absorb my burning
وبرغمand despite هذاthis الجدبِbarrenness لنwill not
وبرغم هذا الجدبِ لن
أأسىI grieve علىover الخَلthe vinegar المراقِspilled
أأسى على الخَل المراقِ
And despite this barrenness, I shall not
And despite this drought, I will not
grieve over the spilled vinegar.
Regret the departed rain
لكنbut لماذاwhy تسأليـyou ask (verb beginning)
لكن لماذا تسأليـ
ـنَfeminine 'you' verb ending بمنwith whom أهيمُI am enamored ومنand whom ألاقيI meet؟
ـنَ بمن أهيمُ ومن ألاقي؟
But why do you ask
But why do you ask me
with whom I am enamored, and whom I meet?
Who I yearn for and who I meet?
فلتستريحيso rest easy إننيindeed I
فلتستريحي إنني
وحديalone، وأحزانيand my sorrows رِفاقيmy companions
وحدي، وأحزاني رِفاقي
So rest easy; I am
Rest assured, I am
alone, and my sorrows are my companions,
Alone, with my sorrows as company
كالسندبادlike Sindbad بلاwithout بحاseas (word beginning)
كالسندباد بلا بحا
رٍcompletion of 'seas' كالغديرِlike the pool بلاwithout سواقيstreams
رٍ كالغديرِ بلا سواقي
like Sindbad without seas,
Like Sindbad without an ocean
like a pool without streams.
Like a stream without banks
ورجايَand my wish ألاthat … not تسأليyou ask
ورجايَ ألا تسألي
هلquestion marker متَyou died أوor ماnot زلتَyou have ceased باقيremaining؟
هل متَ أو ما زلتَ باقي؟
And my wish is that you not ask:
My hope is that you not ask
“Have you died, or are you still alive?”
Whether I died or am still alive
Sol 6.1