ياO ربLord قدindeed طالhas lasted long السقامsickness
يا رب قد طال السقام
فإلىso until مَwhat? لاnot يأتيcomes الحمامdeath
فإلى مَ لا يأتي الحمام
O Lord, the sickness has lasted so long.
O Lord, my sickness has been so long
How long, then, will death fail to come?
To whom can I turn when no dove comes with balm?
وعلىand for مَwhat? فيin واديvalley of الدموعtears
وعلى مَ في وادي الدموع
أعيشI live يُفنينيconsumes me الضرامblazing fire
أعيش يُفنيني الضرام
And why, in the valley of tears,
In the valley of tears I dwell
do I live, consumed by blazing fire?
Consumed by grief beyond qualm
أرجوI hope for منfrom الحبِّlove الشفاءَhealing
أرجو من الحبِّ الشفاءَ
لعلهperhaps it يشفيheals الأوامburning thirst
لعله يشفي الأوام
I seek healing from love,
From love I hope for healing
hoping it may quench my burning thirst.
May it cure all that causes harm
والقلبُand the heart بيتُhome of اللانهايةinfinity
والقلبُ بيتُ اللانهاية
ماnot لهfor it غيرother than الغرامpassionate love
ما له غير الغرام
And the heart is the home of infinity;
The heart is home to infinity
it has nothing but passionate love.
It holds nothing but charm
أطلقهrelease it ياO رباهmy Lord! يلقit will find الthe (article of 'love')
أطلقه يا رباه يلق ال
حبlove فيin دارabode of السلامpeace
حب في دار السلام
Set it free, O my Lord, to find
Release it, O Lord, to find
love in the abode of peace.
Love in the home of peace
إنيindeed I خرجتI came forth إلىinto الوجودexistence
إني خرجت إلى الوجود
فلاso no وراءَbehind ولاand no إمامguide
فلا وراءَ ولا إمام
I came forth into existence,
I came into being aimlessly
with nothing behind me and no guide.
With no path ahead or sheikh to lead
أمشيI walk كماjust as يمشيwalks المسافرthe traveler
أمشي كما يمشي المسافر
تحتbeneath أذيالtrailing skirts of الظلامdarkness
تحت أذيال الظلام
I walk as a traveler walks,
I walk as a traveller walks
beneath the trailing skirts of darkness,
Beneath the skirts of darkness
فيin مأزقa predicament لاnot أعرفI know البدfirst part of 'the beginning'
في مأزق لا أعرف البد
ءَcompletion of 'beginning' البعيدfar-off ولاand not الختامthe end
ءَ البعيد ولا الختام
in a plight where I know neither
In a dilemma, knowing not
the far-off beginning nor the end.
Where this road begins or ceases
فانهارso collapsed بيwith me جرفُcliff of الحياةlife
فانهار بي جرفُ الحياة
إلىinto حضيضٍa depth لاnot يُرامis attainable
إلى حضيضٍ لا يُرام
Then life's cliff collapsed, taking me
The cliff of life crumbled under me
into a depth beyond reach.
And I fell to a pit most vile
وعداand assailed الزمانtime بماwith what أعدَّhad prepared
وعدا الزمان بما أعدَّ
منof الملماتcalamities العظامmighty
من الملمات العظام
And time assailed me with what it had prepared:
Time brought what it had promised
its mighty calamities,
Of calamities and bones in pile
سودٍdark دواهمoverwhelming وقعهنَّtheir impact
سودٍ دواهم وقعهنَّ
أشدharsher منthan وقعimpact of السهامarrows
أشد من وقع السهام
dark, overwhelming, their blows
Evils that struck with the force
harsher than the blows of arrows.
Of arrows flying, mile on mile
ولقيتُand I met خلقاًpeople كلall أمرهمtheir concern
ولقيتُ خلقاً كل أمرهم
التنازعstrife والخصامand quarrelling
التنازع والخصام
And I met people whose whole concern
I found people whose sole pursuit
was strife and quarrelling.
Was discord and hostility
لاnot يفهمونthey understand لعيشهمfor their lives
لا يفهمون لعيشهم
معنىmeaning of التجاملmutual courtesy والوئامand harmony
معنى التجامل والوئام
They do not understand, in their lives,
Who understood not in life
the meaning of courtesy and harmony.
The meaning of harmony
فُطِرواthey were fashioned كماjust as فُطرwere fashioned الكباشُthe rams
فُطِروا كما فُطر الكباشُ
علىfor التناطحhead-butting والصدامand clashing
على التناطح والصدام
They were fashioned, as rams were fashioned,
They were created like rams
for butting heads and clashing.
To clash and collide
فرأيتُso I saw آماليmy hopes شعاعاًa ray
فرأيتُ آمالي شعاعاً
طارflew away فيin ذاكthat الزحامcrowd
طار في ذاك الزحام
Then I saw my hopes as a ray
I saw my hopes were but a ray
that flew away amid that throng.
That flew in the crowds and died
وعلمتand I learned أنthat سعادةhappiness of الدنياthe world
وعلمت أن سعادة الدنيا
مصانعةُcurrying favor with الأنامhumankind
مصانعةُ الأنام
And I learned that happiness in this world
I learned that worldly bliss
lies in currying favor with people.
Is but to cheat and feign
وأبىand refused ليfor me الطبعnature النزيهُupright
وأبى لي الطبع النزيهُ
مودةaffection for القومthe people اللئامbase
مودة القوم اللئام
Yet my upright nature would not allow me
My noble nature refused
affection for those base people.
To befriend those base and vain
فكأننيso it is as though I فيamong النساpeople (text uncertain) جزءٌa part
فكأنني في النسا جزءٌ
ماnot لهfor it بهمwith them التئامunion
ما له بهم التئام
So I seem a part among people
I was to them an outlier
that has no bond with them.
With whom they felt no bond
إنif متُّI die لمnot يحزنgrieves محبٌّone who loves
إن متُّ لم يحزن محبٌّ
أوor حييتI live فلاthen no ابتسامsmile
أو حييت فلا ابتسام
If I die, no one who loves me will grieve;
If I died, no lover would weep
or if I live, there is no smile.
If I lived, there’d be no smile fond
فبكيتso I wept لكنbut هلdo...? تعيfirst part of 'restore'
فبكيت لكن هل تعي
دcompletion of 'restore' العمرlifespan أدمعيmy tears السجاميstreaming
د العمر أدمعي السجامي
So I wept—but can
I cried but do you know
my streaming tears bring back my years?
How plentiful my tears undammed?
وأسفتُand I grieved أنيthat I لمnot أنلattain
وأسفتُ أني لم أنل
حظيmy share ولمand not أقضI fulfill المرامthe desired aim
حظي ولم أقض المرام
And I grieved that I had not attained
I regretted that I gained not
my share, nor fulfilled my desire,
What I hoped for nor fulfilled my dream
أسفَgrief of الطريدthe exile علىfor مواطنhomelands
أسفَ الطريد على مواطن
كنthey were جناتِgardens of السلامpeace
كن جناتِ السلام
with an exile's grief for homelands
I regretted like an outcast
that were gardens of peace,
The home I left, garden of delight
مثوىresting place of جدودٍforebears نخبةٍdistinguished
مثوى جدودٍ نخبةٍ
ومبيتand lodging of أحبابloved ones كرامnoble
ومبيت أحباب كرام
the resting place of distinguished forebears,
The dwelling place of my noble ancestors
and the lodging of dear, noble friends.
And abode of friends so bright
وحسدتُand I envied فرخِfledgling of الطيرbirds حينwhen
وحسدتُ فرخِ الطير حين
إلىbeside جناحِwing of الأمِّthe mother نامslept
إلى جناحِ الأمِّ نام
And I envied the fledgling when
I envied the bird's fledgling
it slept beside its mother's wing.
As it nestled in its mother's wing
وحسدتand I envied تربَsoil of الأرضِthe earth إذsince
وحسدت تربَ الأرضِ إذ
منهfrom it نضيرُfresh الغصنthe branch نامgrowing
منه نضيرُ الغصن نام
And I envied the earth's soil, for
And the earth's dust as from it
a fresh branch grows from it.
The branch's mate began to spring
وحسدتُand I envied أنفاسَbreaths of النسيfirst part of 'the breeze'
وحسدتُ أنفاسَ النسي
مcompletion of 'breeze' غداwent forth بهاwith them عَبَقُfragrance of الخزامlavender
م غدا بها عَبَقُ الخزام
And I envied the breaths of the
And the breath of the soft night breeze
breeze, bearing the fragrance of lavender.
Laden with the fruit's perfume
وحسدتُand I envied أزهارflowers of الجناfirst part of 'the gardens'
وحسدتُ أزهار الجنا
ئنcompletion of 'gardens' حينwhen ضمَّتهاenfolded them الكمامcalyxes
ئن حين ضمَّتها الكمام
And I envied the flowers of the
And the flowers of the garden
gardens, when their calyxes enfolded them.
As they shyly donned their costume
ضاقتclosed in عليَّupon me الكائناfirst part of 'the beings'
ضاقت عليَّ الكائنا
تُcompletion of 'beings' فلاso no قرارَrepose علىin مقامan abode
تُ فلا قرارَ على مقام
All creation closed in upon me,
All of creation seems too narrow
with no repose in any abode.
I find no place to make my home
أغدوI rise in the morning وحالاتُand the states of التيقّfirst part of 'wakefulness'
أغدو وحالاتُ التيقّ
قُظِcompletion of 'wakefulness' مثلُlike حالاتِstates of المنامsleep
قُظِ مثلُ حالاتِ المنام
I rise each morning, my waking states
My states change rapidly
like the states of sleep.
Like a dream that comes and goes
لمnot يبقَremains منof جسميmy body سوىexcept
لم يبقَ من جسمي سوى
ماwhat أَبقتhave left الكُربُafflictions الجسامgrievous
ما أَبقت الكُربُ الجسام
Nothing remains of my body but
All that remains of my body
what grievous afflictions have left:
Is what worry and toil did not consume
نفسٌa breath يُردِّدهُrepeats it الفناءُdeath
نفسٌ يُردِّدهُ الفناءُ
علىover ضريحa tomb منof عظامbones
على ضريح من عظام
a breath that death keeps repeating
A soul tossed by oblivion
over a tomb of bones.
To a tomb of dry bones
إنيindeed I زهدتُI have renounced فلاso no رجاءَhope
إني زهدتُ فلا رجاءَ
فهلso will...? أَعودُI return ولاand no دوامpermanence
فهل أَعودُ ولا دوام
I have renounced it all; no hope remains.
I have lost all hope
So shall I return, though nothing lasts?
Shall I return or is this my doom?
منwhoever كانwas يخشىfears منتهىutmost limit of
من كان يخشى منتهى
التعسِmisery الملمِّbesetting فلاso no ملامblame
التعسِ الملمِّ فلا ملام
Whoever fears the utmost limit
Whoever fears utter misery
of besetting misery is not to blame.
Cannot be blamed
رباهO my Lord! عفوكYour pardon إننيindeed I
رباه عفوك إنني
أدعوكI call upon You ياO ربَّLord of الأنامhumankind
أدعوك يا ربَّ الأنام
My Lord, forgive me; I
My Lord, Your forgiveness, I implore
call upon You, O Lord of humankind.
O Lord of all people
فمتىso when? أموتُI die وأستريحُand I rest
فمتى أموتُ وأستريحُ
وينقضand ends هذاthis السقامsickness
وينقض هذا السقام
When, then, shall I die and find rest,
When will I die and find rest
and this sickness come to an end?
And this illness come to its close?
وأقولُand I say فيin قبريmy grave علىupon
وأقولُ في قبري على
الدنياthe world ومنand whoever فيهاwithin it السلامpeace
الدنيا ومن فيها السلام
And in my grave I shall say:
In my grave I will bid the world
"Peace be upon the world and all within it."
And those in it goodbye and peace