أيwhat المشاعرthe feelings فيin الدماءthe blood تدفقتflowed
أي المشاعر في الدماء تدفقت
حينwhen التقيناwe met بعدafter هجرestrangement مؤلمpainful
حين التقينا بعد هجر مؤلم
What feelings surged through my blood
What emotions flowed in the blood
When we met after a painful estrangement?
When we met after a painful separation
وأبىand he refused السلامthe greeting أبيتهI refused it منfrom قبلbefore أنthat
وأبى السلام أبيته من قبل أن
يدنوhe draws near يمرhe passes عليby me غيرnot مُسلمoffering a greeting
يدنو يمر علي غير مُسلم
And he refused a greeting; I had refused it before he
And peace refused my residence before
Drew near, passing me without a greeting.
It came close and passed by unmuslim
وكذاand likewise تشابهwere alike فيin الخصامdiscord شعورناour feelings
وكذا تشابه في الخصام شعورنا
كأمسas yesterday فيin وصلunion وحبand love مفعمoverflowing
كأمس في وصل وحب مفعم
And so our feelings were alike in discord,
And so our feelings in disagreement resembled
As yesterday, in union and overflowing love.
Yesterday's in harmony and love-filled
أعطيتهI gave him ظهريmy back وكمand how much ملكhe owned الذيthat which
أعطيته ظهري وكم ملك الذي
فيin الصدرthe breast منof قلبa heart توهجglowed بالدمwith blood
في الصدر من قلب توهج بالدم
I turned my back on him—yet how completely he owned the
I gave him my back and how much did he possess
Heart in my breast, glowing with blood!
Of a heart blazing in the chest with blood
ووقفتand I stood صامتةsilent أحركI move فيin يديmy hand
ووقفت صامتة أحرك في يدي
مفتاحkey بيتيmy house أوor أساورbracelets معصميmy wrist
مفتاح بيتي أو أساور معصمي
And I stood silent, turning in my hand
And I stood silent, moving in my hand
My house key, or the bracelets on my wrist.
The key to my house or bangles on my wrist
وخشيتand I feared أنto أرنوgaze إليهat him وطالماand so often
وخشيت أن أرنو إليه وطالما
أغرتI sank عينيmy eyes فيinto سماهhis sky المظلمdark
أغرت عيني في سماه المظلم
And I feared to gaze at him, though so often
And I feared that I would look back at him and for so long
I had sunk my eyes into his dark sky.
My eyes tempted me in his dark sky
ورجعتand I drew back حتىeven لوif تلمسhe touched إصبعيmy finger
ورجعت حتى لو تلمس إصبعي
لهويتI would have fallen فوقupon الأرضthe ground كالمتحطمlike one shattered
لهويت فوق الأرض كالمتحطم
And I drew back—had he so much as touched my finger,
And I went back as if my finger
I would have fallen to the ground like one shattered.
Touched him I would plummet to the ground shattered
كمhow many أمنياتwishes عربدتran riot فيin خاطريmy mind
كم أمنيات عربدت في خاطري
لوif أننيthat I حققتهاI fulfilled them لمdid not أسلمI remain safe
لو أنني حققتها لم أسلم
How many wishes ran riot in my mind!
How many wishes did I chant in my mind
Had I fulfilled them, I would not have escaped unscathed.
If I fulfilled them I would not be secure
فلوfor if استطعتI could عليon الخدودthe cheeks صفعتهI slapped him
فلو استطعت علي الخدود صفعته
ثمthen انثنيتI bent بقبلتينwith two kisses علىon الفمthe mouth
ثم انثنيت بقبلتين على الفم
For had I been able, I would have slapped him on the cheeks,
If only I could slap him on the cheek
Then bent to give him two kisses on the mouth.
Then lean with two kisses on the mouth
ولوand if استطعتI could سخرتI scoffed منهat him, شتمتهI insulted him
ولو استطعت سخرت منه, شتمته
وركعتand I knelt فوقupon خطاهhis footsteps كالمتندمlike one remorseful
وركعت فوق خطاه كالمتندم
And had I been able, I would have mocked him, insulted him,
If only I could mock him, insult him
And knelt upon his footprints like one remorseful.
And kneel above his footsteps like a regretter
ياO أنتyou لاdo not تغترflatter yourself لستI am not ملومةto blame
يا أنت لا تغتر لست ملومة
أهواكI love you حبlove الأمthe mother لابنfor a son مجرمcriminal
أهواك حب الأم لابن مجرم
O you, do not flatter yourself; I am not to blame:
Oh you, do not be fooled, I am not blameworthy
I love you with a mother's love for a criminal son.
I love you with a mother's love for her criminal son