خليليmy friend قدindeed اتسعتhas grown wider محنتيmy ordeal
خليلي قد اتسعت محنتي
علىupon me وضاقتand shrank بهاbecause of it حيلتيmy resourcefulness
على وضاقت بها حيلتي
My friend, my ordeal has grown
My friend, my troubles have grown
Upon me, and my means of coping have shrunk.
And my plans have narrowed
عذرتI excused عذاريmy sideburns فيfor شيبهits graying
عذرت عذاري في شيبه
وماand not لمتI blamed أنthat شمطتbecame gray-streaked لمتيmy locks
وما لمت أن شمطت لمتي
I forgave my sideburns for turning gray,
I forgave my young friends in their youth
Nor blamed my locks for becoming streaked with gray.
And did not blame when they erred
إلىuntil كمhow long يخاسسنيit demeans me دائماًcontinually
إلى كم يخاسسني دائماً
زمانيmy time المقبحbehaving foully فيin عشرتيits dealings with me
زماني المقبح في عشرتي
How long will I be continually demeaned
How long will time always deceive me
By my time, so foul in its dealings with me?
Making my life miserable?
تحيفنيit wronged me ظالماًunjustly غاشماًruthlessly
تحيفني ظالماً غاشماً
وكدرand clouded بعدafter الصفاserenity عيشتيmy life
وكدر بعد الصفا عيشتي
It has wronged me, unjust and ruthless,
It wrongs me unjustly and harshly
And muddied my life after its serenity.
And troubles my once happy life
وكنتُand I had تماسكتُI held myself together فيماin what مضىhas passed
وكنتُ تماسكتُ فيما مضى
فقدbut indeed خاننيbetrayed me الدهرtime فيin مسكتيmy means of support
فقد خانني الدهر في مسكتي
I once held myself together in days gone by,
I used to be composed in the past
But time has betrayed my means of support,
But fate has betrayed my composure
إلىto منزلٍa dwelling لاnot يواريconceals إذاwhen
إلى منزلٍ لا يواري إذا
تحصلتI settled فيهin it سوىexcept سوأتيmy private parts
تحصلت فيه سوى سوأتي
Reducing me to a dwelling that, when
To a home that shelters nothing
I lodge in it, conceals only my private parts.
Except my own disgrace
مقيماًresiding أروحI return in the evening إلىto منزلٍa dwelling
مقيماً أروح إلى منزلٍ
كقبريlike my grave وماand not حضرتhas arrived ميتتيmy death
كقبري وما حضرت ميتتي
I return in the evening to dwell in a house
I stay going to a home
Like my grave, though my death has not yet come.
Like my grave though my burial awaits
إذاwhen ماemphatic particle ألمdrops in صديقيmy friend بهat it
إذا ما ألم صديقي به
علىout of رغبةٍdesire منهon his part فيfor زورتيa visit to me
على رغبةٍ منه في زورتي
Whenever my friend drops in there,
When a friend wishes to visit me
Eager to pay me a visit,
Driven by desire though I live far
فرشتI spread لهfor him فيهin it بسطcarpets الحديconversation (first part)
فرشت له فيه بسط الحدي
ثend of 'conversation' منfrom بابthe door of بيتيmy house إلىto صفتيmy portico
ث من باب بيتي إلى صفتي
I spread for him there the carpets of conversation,
I spread out a mat for him
From my house's door to my portico.
From my door to the courtyard
ومعدتهand his stomach منfrom خلالthe midst of الكلاconversation (first part)
ومعدته من خلال الكلا
مend of 'conversation' تشكوcomplains of خواهاits emptiness إلىto معدتيmy stomach
م تشكو خواها إلى معدتي
And his stomach, amid the conversation,
And prepare his dinner
Complains of its emptiness to my stomach.
With words that appeal to his appetite
وقدand already فتsapped فيin عضديmy arm (strength) ماwhat بهِis upon him
وقد فت في عضدي ما بهِ
ولكنand yet عليهover him غلبتprevailed علتيmy affliction
ولكن عليه غلبت علتي
And his plight has already sapped my strength,
Though pain weighs down my arm
Yet my own affliction outweighs his.
My sickness overcomes it
وأغدوand I go out in the morning غدواًa morning outing ملياًwell suited بأنto the fact that
وأغدو غدواً ملياً بأن
يزيدincreases بهthrough it اللهGod فيin شقوتيmy misery
يزيد به الله في شقوتي
And I go out in the morning, on an outing fit
I rise every morning hoping
For God to increase my misery through it.
God will increase my misery
فأيةُso whichever دارٍhouse تيممتهاI headed for it
فأيةُ دارٍ تيممتها
تتيمcaptivates بوابهاits doorkeeper حجتيmy plea
تتيم بوابها حجتي
So whichever house I head for,
What house have I sought
My plea captivates its doorkeeper.
Where my argument moves the gatekeeper?
وإنand if أناI زاحمتُI jostled حتىuntil أموتI die
وإن أنا زاحمتُ حتى أموت
دخلتُI entered وقدand already خرجتhas departed مهجتيmy life's breath
دخلتُ وقد خرجت مهجتي
And if I jostle my way through until I die,
If I vie until I die
I enter with my life's breath already gone.
I enter and my brain leaves me
فيرفعنيthen lifts me up الناسthe people عندat الوصولarrival
فيرفعني الناس عند الوصول
إليهمto them وقدand already سقطتhas fallen عمتيmy turban
إليهم وقد سقطت عمتي
Then people lift me up when I reach
People shun me when I reach them
Them, my turban having already fallen.
Though my blindness fell long ago
وإنand if نهضواthey rose بعدafterward للأنصراto depart (first part)
وإن نهضوا بعد للأنصرا
فend of 'depart' أسرعتhastened فيin إثرهمtheir wake نهضتيmy rising
ف أسرعت في إثرهم نهضتي
And if afterward they rise to depart,
If they help me up later
I hasten to rise in their wake.
I quickly follow their rising
وإنand if قدمواthey brought forward خيلهمtheir horses للركوبfor riding
وإن قدموا خيلهم للركوب
خرجتI went out فقدمتthen I brought forward ليfor myself ركبتيmy knee
خرجت فقدمت لي ركبتي
And if they bring their horses forward to ride,
If they ready their horses for riding
I go out and bring forward my own knee.
I ready my knees for walking
وفيand in جملretinues الناسthe people غلمانهمtheir servants
وفي جمل الناس غلمانهم
وليسand there is not سوائيanyone besides me فيin جملتيmy retinue
وليس سوائي في جملتي
And in people's retinues are their servants,
Among people's camels are their boys
While my retinue contains no one but me.
While only my uncle's son is in my company
ولاand no ليfor me غلامٌa servant فأدعواso I could call بهfor him
ولا لي غلامٌ فأدعوا به
سوىexcept منthe one whose أبوهhis father أخوthe brother of عمتيmy paternal aunt
سوى من أبوه أخو عمتي
And I have no servant I can call for,
I have no boy to summon
Except the one whose father is my paternal aunt's brother.
Except one whose father is my aunt's brother
ركنتI relied مليحاًhandsome أروقI delight العيوeyes (first part)
ركنت مليحاً أروق العيو
نend of 'eyes' أيضاًalso فقدbut now قبحتhas grown ugly خلقتيmy appearance
ن أيضاً فقد قبحت خلقتي
I relied on being handsome, pleasing the eyes;
I was once handsome, pleasing to the eye
Yet my appearance, too, has grown ugly.
Yet now my nature has turned ugly
يعرقstrips bare خديmy cheek جفافthe dryness of الهزالemaciation
يعرق خدي جفاف الهزال
وحافand ravaged الشناجwrinkling علىupon وجنتيmy cheek
وحاف الشناج على وجنتي
The dryness of emaciation strips my cheek bare,
My cheeks are chapped from starvation's drought
And wrinkling has ravaged my cheek.
And my eyelids swollen close
وقوسنيand bent me like a bow الهمworry حتىuntil انطويتI doubled over
وقوسني الهم حتى انطويت
فصرتُso I became كأنيas though I were أبوthe father of جدتيmy grandmother
فصرتُ كأني أبو جدتي
And worry bent me like a bow till I doubled over,
Worry has bent me over
So I became as though I were my grandmother's father.
Till I resemble my grandmother
وكانand was المزينُthe barber فيماin what مضىhas passed
وكان المزينُ فيما مضى
تكسرُwould break أمشاطهhis combs طرتيmy forelock
تكسرُ أمشاطه طرتي
And the barber, in days gone by,
Once combs would break in my thick hair
Would have his combs broken by my forelock.
But now I am balder than a baby bird
وكنتand I was برأسٍwith a head كلونlike the color of الغدافa raven
وكنت برأسٍ كلون الغداف
فقدbut now صرتI have become أصلعbalder منthan فيشتيmy glans (penis head)
فقد صرت أصلع من فيشتي
And my head once had the color of a raven;
O Lord, the white cheeks of youth
Now I am balder than the head of my cock.
Used to yearn for my company
وياand oh ربhow many a بيضاءfair-skinned woman رودtender الشباyouth (first part)
ويا رب بيضاء رود الشبا
بend of 'youth' كانتshe used to تحنyearn إلىfor وصلتيunion with me
ب كانت تحن إلى وصلتي
And oh, how many a fair-skinned woman, tender in youth,
Now they turn away when they see
Used to yearn for union with me.
My gray hairs, angered by my baldness
فصارتthen she began تصدto turn away إذاwhen أبصرتshe saw
فصارت تصد إذا أبصرت
مشيبيmy gray hair وتغضبand grows angry منat صلعتيmy baldness
مشيبي وتغضب من صلعتي
Now she turns away when she sees
Still, I told her one day when I hardened my resolve to part:
My gray hair, and grows angry at my baldness.
"Forget what is past, my aunt
علىdespite أننيthat I قلتI said يوماًone day لهاto her
على أنني قلت يوماً لها
وقدand already أمضتshe made firm العزمthe resolve فيin هجرتيabandoning me
وقد أمضت العزم في هجرتي
Although I said to her one day,
For my beauty has faded
When she had firmly resolved to abandon me:
What remains is a tall, wide, bony frame
دعيdisregard عنكaway from you ماwhat فوقهabove it عمتيmy turban
دعي عنك ما فوقه عمتي
فإنfor indeed جماليmy beauty وراbehind تكتيmy trouser drawstring
فإن جمالي ورا تكتي
Never mind what lies beneath my turban;
Except my heart which grief has drowned
For my beauty lies behind my trouser drawstring.
And made idle in constant sorrow"
هنالكthere أيرٌa cock يسرُّdelights العيونthe eyes
هنالك أيرٌ يسرُّ العيون
طويلٌlong عريضٌbroad علىdespite دقتيmy thinness
طويلٌ عريضٌ على دقتي
There is a cock there that delights the eyes,
I owned a farm in Tikrit
Long and broad, despite my thinness.
That gave crops, but now my only crop is grief
سوىexcept أنّthat قلبيmy heart قدalready ضرفتhas worn down
سوى أنّ قلبي قد ضرفت
هit فيin شغلهoccupying it بالأسىwith grief عطلتيmy idleness
ه في شغله بالأسى عطلتي
Except that my heart has been worn down
They raided my sesame harshly
By my idleness, keeping it occupied with grief.
Advancing until my wheat was gone
وكانتand there was بتكريتin Tikrit ليfor me غلةٌa yield
وكانت بتكريت لي غلةٌ
فغلتthen it was embezzled بأجمعهاin its entirety غلتيmy yield
فغلت بأجمعها غلتي
And I had a yield in Tikrit,
So I still resent all who
But my entire yield was embezzled.
With their tricks eliminated my bounty
أغارواthey raided علىupon سمسميmy sesame غارةًa raid
أغاروا على سمسمي غارةً
تعدتspread beyond فأنضتand so depleted إلىas far as حنطتيmy wheat
تعدت فأنضت إلى حنطتي
They raided my sesame in an onslaught
That spread farther and depleted even my wheat.
فلاso not أزالI cease فيin نقمةٍvengeful anger كلevery منone who
فلا أزال في نقمةٍ كل من
أزالremoved بحيلتهby his scheming نعمتيmy good fortune
أزال بحيلته نعمتي
So I remain in wrath against everyone who
Stripped away my good fortune through his scheming.
Partial English translation: 62 of 66 Arabic lines translated.