فارقتني ففقدتُ مُذْ ذَاك الهدى

فارقتني ففقدتُ مُذْ ذَاك الهدى

وهجرتني , والهجرُ بدَّدَني سُدى

وهجرتني , والهجرُ بدَّدَني سُدى

You parted from me, so since then I have lost my way.

You left me, so I lost guidance since then

And you abandoned me; abandonment scattered me in vain.

You abandoned me, and abandonment scattered me in vain

وسلبتَ عُمرًا – فيكَ قدْ أهدرتُهُ

وسلبتَ عُمرًا – فيكَ قدْ أهدرتُهُ

فرَّقتَهُ قِدَداً تلاشتْ في المدى

فرَّقتَهُ قِدَداً تلاشتْ في المدى

And you stole a lifetime I had squandered on you.

You took away a lifetime – which I wasted on you

You tore it into shreds that vanished in the distance.

You fragmented it into pieces that faded into the horizon

ياليتني ماقد عرفتكَ مطلقا

ياليتني ماقد عرفتكَ مطلقا

ياليتني ماقد عشقتُ مُجَدَّدا

ياليتني ماقد عشقتُ مُجَدَّدا

If only I had never known you at all.

If only I never knew you at all

If only I had not fallen in love again.

If only I never loved you all over again

أين الذي قدَّمتُه ؟ رغم الجفا

أين الذي قدَّمتُه ؟ رغم الجفا

أين الذي أوَّدتُه فتأوَّدا ؟

أين الذي أوَّدتُه فتأوَّدا ؟

Where is what I offered, despite estrangement?

Where is he whom I offered? Despite the betrayal

Where is what I bent, so it swayed?

Where is he whom I befriended so he reciprocated?

أين انعطافي واتِّقادي والوفا

أين انعطافي واتِّقادي والوفا

باتت حطاماً في الشعاب مُرمَّدا

باتت حطاماً في الشعاب مُرمَّدا

Where are my tenderness, my ardor, and fidelity?

Where is my passion, my fervor, and loyalty

They became wreckage in the ravines, reduced to ash.

That turned into rubble in the valleys, demolished

أين الصَّفا – ويلاي كدَّره النَّوى

أين الصَّفا – ويلاي كدَّره النَّوى

وغدت ليالينا رجُوماً صُرَّدا

وغدت ليالينا رجُوماً صُرَّدا

Where is serenity? Alas, separation clouded it.

Where is the purity – woe to me, it was disturbed by longing

And our nights became piercing missiles.

And our nights became stoned, repelled

ومضت تراتيلُ الهوى في حَيَّنا

ومضت تراتيلُ الهوى في حَيَّنا

حُلُمَاً تَمَشَّع في الدُّجى وَتَفَنَّدا

حُلُمَاً تَمَشَّع في الدُّجى وَتَفَنَّدا

And the hymns of love in our quarter passed away,

The melodies of love in our life passed

A dream that scattered in the darkness and proved false.

As a dream that dispersed into the gloom and vanished

ألبستني ثوب الضَّنا و ظلمتني

ألبستني ثوب الضَّنا و ظلمتني

وعَمَيتَني , لمَّا حسبتُكَ إثْمِدا

وعَمَيتَني , لمَّا حسبتُكَ إثْمِدا

You clothed me in the garment of wasting sickness and wronged me.

You dressed me in the garb of remorse and wronged me

And you blinded me when I had taken you for kohl.

And blinded me, when I thought you eternally faithful

وشهدتَ معترك التّوجُّدِ في دمي

وشهدتَ معترك التّوجُّدِ في دمي

فضربتَ صفْحًا عنْهُ , باتَ مُشرَّدا

فضربتَ صفْحًا عنْهُ , باتَ مُشرَّدا

And you witnessed longing's battlefield within my blood.

You witnessed the battlefield of passion in my blood

So you turned away from it; it became an outcast.

Yet you turned away from it, so it became lost

وشَقَقْتَ في صَلَفٍ عُرى أشواقنا

وشَقَقْتَ في صَلَفٍ عُرى أشواقنا

وأنا التي وثَّقتُ حبُّك مُذْ بدا

وأنا التي وثَّقتُ حبُّك مُذْ بدا

And in arrogance you tore the bonds of our longings.

You tore apart in disdain the bonds of our longing

And I am she who strengthened your love from the moment it appeared.

When I was the one who secured your love since it began

وأنا الّتي أُشربتُه لك َخالصا

وأنا الّتي أُشربتُه لك َخالصا

وَخَصَصْتُ قلبَكَ – في الصبابةِ مُفردا

وَخَصَصْتُ قلبَكَ – في الصبابةِ مُفردا

And I am she who was imbued with it, pure for you,

I was the one who quenched it for you sincerely

And singled out your heart alone in ardent love.

And devoted your heart – in my prime, singularly

وأنا الّتي أبدعتهُ لكَ صادقًا

وأنا الّتي أبدعتهُ لكَ صادقًا

وأنا الّتي قطَّرتُهُ فتشهَّدا

وأنا الّتي قطَّرتُهُ فتشهَّدا

And I am she who created it for you, sincere,

I was the one who inspired it in you genuinely

And I am she who distilled it, so it professed faith.

I was the one who nurtured it so it prospered

وأنا التي آويتُ توقَكَ كلما

وأنا التي آويتُ توقَكَ كلما

عصفتْ به ريحٌ فهاجَ و أزبدا

عصفتْ به ريحٌ فهاجَ و أزبدا

And I am she who sheltered your yearning whenever

I was the one who sheltered your longing whenever

A wind buffeted it, so it raged and foamed.

A raging wind stirred it, raging and foaming

وأنا التي خالطته لك بي أنا

وأنا التي خالطته لك بي أنا

وَسلخْتَهُ عن روحهِ فَتَفصًّدا

وَسلخْتَهُ عن روحهِ فَتَفصًّدا

And I am she who mingled it with my very self for you,

I was the one who blended it with my essence for you

And you stripped it from its soul, so it bled.

Yet you peeled it off its soul, separating entirely

فرضيتَ قتلي دون أيِّ جريرةٍ

فرضيتَ قتلي دون أيِّ جريرةٍ

ورغبتُ أن تبقى الرَّضِيَّ الأسْعدا

ورغبتُ أن تبقى الرَّضِيَّ الأسْعدا

So you consented to my killing without any offense,

You wished my murder without any crime

And I wished you to remain contented and the happiest.

And I wished you remain the most blissful

ونسيتَ وصلاً من يَدِيّ جنيتَه

ونسيتَ وصلاً من يَدِيّ جنيتَه

وجزيتني هجرا ظلوما جَلْمَدَا

وجزيتني هجرا ظلوما جَلْمَدَا

And you forgot the closeness you reaped from my hands,

You forgot a bond I reaped for you

And repaid me with abandonment, unjust and rock-hard.

And rewarded me with cruel estrangement and suppression

أسقيتني غُسلَ القُراح و لم تزل

أسقيتني غُسلَ القُراح و لم تزل

تسقي رياضي القيحَ في كأس الصدا

تسقي رياضي القيحَ في كأس الصدا

You made me drink the washings of pure water, and still

You quenched me with the washing of wounds, and still

You water my gardens with pus in a cup of rust.

You keep quenching my garden’s pus in the cup of discord

ورشفتَ من عرقي شعوراً صادقا

ورشفتَ من عرقي شعوراً صادقا

وتركْتَهُ , إذْ جفَّ , من بعد الندى

وتركْتَهُ , إذْ جفَّ , من بعد الندى

And you sipped sincere feeling from my sweat,

You sipped from my sweat a sincere feeling

And abandoned it when it dried after the dew.

Then left it when it dried, after the dew

وعبثتَ في روحي شَقِيَّاً مُعْتِبا

وعبثتَ في روحي شَقِيَّاً مُعْتِبا

وتركتَ أنفاسي لهيبًا أسودا

وتركتَ أنفاسي لهيبًا أسودا

And you toyed with my soul, wretched and appeasing,

You wreaked havoc in my soul, blaming regretfully

And left my breaths a black flame.

And left my breaths as a dark flame

وَغزوتَ أحنائي حنيناً جارفا

وَغزوتَ أحنائي حنيناً جارفا

وتركتَها مِزقًا ليهتكَها الرَّدى

وتركتَها مِزقًا ليهتكَها الرَّدى

And you invaded my inner recesses with sweeping yearning,

You invaded my depths with overwhelming yearning

And left them in shreds for death to rend.

Then left them torn, for ruin to desecrate

وبلوتني بالشَّوق يرشق مُهجتي

وبلوتني بالشَّوق يرشق مُهجتي

ونثرتُه لكَ حَالِماً ومُوَرَّدا

ونثرتُه لكَ حَالِماً ومُوَرَّدا

And you tried me with longing that pelts my heart,

You tested me with longing that pierces my mind

And I strewed it for you, dreaming and rosy.

And I scattered it for you, dreaming and delirious

ومسحتُ دمعَكَ أفتديه – بأضلعي

ومسحتُ دمعَكَ أفتديه – بأضلعي

وحَطَمْتَ ضلعًا – في هُيامِكَ مُجهدا

وحَطَمْتَ ضلعًا – في هُيامِكَ مُجهدا

And I wiped your tears, ransoming them with my ribs,

I wiped your tears – I'd ransom them – with my ribs

And you shattered a rib, worn out in your passion.

You broke a rib – exhausted in your infatuation

ويلاي منكَ فقد ألفتكَ صاحبا

ويلاي منكَ فقد ألفتكَ صاحبا

والآن يصحبني الفراقُ تَوقُّدا

والآن يصحبني الفراقُ تَوقُّدا

Woe to me because of you, for I had grown used to you as a companion,

Woe to me from you, for I was used to you as a companion

And now separation keeps me company as a blaze.

And now separation accompanies me, blazing

ماذا أروم الآن من دهري سوى

ماذا أروم الآن من دهري سوى

طيفٍ يفرِّق مُهْجَتِي كَمَداً غدا

طيفٍ يفرِّق مُهْجَتِي كَمَداً غدا

What do I now seek from my life except

What can I seek now in my life except

A phantom that will tear my heart apart with grief tomorrow?

A specter that tears apart my mind like a spear tomorrow?

صاحبتُ غيظكَ – و السماحةُ في يدي

صاحبتُ غيظكَ – و السماحةُ في يدي

وصحبتَ أوجاعي مَلوماً مُرعِدا

وصحبتَ أوجاعي مَلوماً مُرعِدا

I kept company with your rage, magnanimity in my hand,

I endured your anger – and forgiveness is in my hand

And you kept company with my pains, blamed and thundering.

While you accompanied my pains, blaming and thunderous

أشقيتَ أورادي الندية بعدما

أشقيتَ أورادي الندية بعدما

غنَّى لها طيرُ الغرام و غرَّدا

غنَّى لها طيرُ الغرام و غرَّدا

You made my dew-fresh litanies miserable, after

You tormented my soft hymns after

Love's bird had sung and warbled for them.

The birds of passion sang and trilled to them

وشكوتني وأنا التي أشكو الضنا

وشكوتني وأنا التي أشكو الضنا

وبكيتَ منى ظالماً مُتَمَرِّدا

وبكيتَ منى ظالماً مُتَمَرِّدا

And you complained of me, while I was the one lamenting wasting sickness,

And you complained of me, when I complain of injustice

And you wept because of me, unjust and rebellious.

And you wept from me, wronging and defiant

ونشرتَ حرفكَ مُرعِفا و مُسَيَّفا

ونشرتَ حرفكَ مُرعِفا و مُسَيَّفا

وبقيتَ حتى في ضلالك سيِّدا

وبقيتَ حتى في ضلالك سيِّدا

And you spread your words, blood-drawing and sword-armed,

You spread your words, provoking and menacing

And even in your waywardness you remained a master.

Yet in your misguidance, you remained the master

ألهبتَ قافيتي , فشعري قد غدا

ألهبتَ قافيتي , فشعري قد غدا

برقاً يُسابقُ لَوعتي مُتَعَمِّدا

برقاً يُسابقُ لَوعتي مُتَعَمِّدا

You set my rhyme aflame, so my poetry has become

You ignited my rhyme, so my poetry has become

Lightning deliberately racing my anguish.

Lightning that races my anguish deliberately

قلْ جاحداً قلْ ناقماً قل ساخطا

قلْ جاحداً قلْ ناقماً قل ساخطا

قل ما ارتضيتَ – من الكلامِ مُهدِّدا

قل ما ارتضيتَ – من الكلامِ مُهدِّدا

Speak ungratefully, speak resentfully, speak angrily.

Say, denying, say, resentful, say angry

Say whatever words you please, threateningly.

Say what you wish – with threatening words

إني وجدُّتك ثائراً لاترعوي

إني وجدُّتك ثائراً لاترعوي

أبدا و لا ترجو خلاصي مُبْتَدا

أبدا و لا ترجو خلاصي مُبْتَدا

Indeed, I found you raging; you do not desist

I found you a rebel who never calms

Ever, nor do you hope for my deliverance to begin.

Never hoping for my relief, unforgiving

ووجدتُ أنكَ مذ نشأتَ مُدلَّلا

ووجدتُ أنكَ مذ نشأتَ مُدلَّلا

تلقى الجواري – في بلاطِكَ سُجَّدا

تلقى الجواري – في بلاطِكَ سُجَّدا

And I found that, since you grew up pampered,

I found you since you were born pampered

You receive maidservants prostrate in your court.

Receiving concubines – bowing in your court

ووجدتُ ظنَّك بي رديئاً أجعدا

ووجدتُ ظنَّك بي رديئاً أجعدا

لمَّا يقيني قدْ حباكَ الأجودا

لمَّا يقيني قدْ حباكَ الأجودا

And I found your opinion of me base and twisted,

I found your perception of me ugly and spiteful

When my certainty had bestowed the best upon you.

When my certainty wove you the finest

أنسيت طعم الوصل مني – خمرةً

أنسيت طعم الوصل مني – خمرةً

وهربتَ من حِضني لترميني عِدا ؟

وهربتَ من حِضني لترميني عِدا ؟

Have you forgotten the taste of union with me—a wine—

Did you forget the taste of union with me – a wine

And fled my embrace to assail me with hostility?

And flee from my embrace to cast me away?

ونسيتَ صمتكَ عابساً متجهِّما

ونسيتَ صمتكَ عابساً متجهِّما

وبراحتي سويَّتُه , فتنجَّدا

وبراحتي سويَّتُه , فتنجَّدا

And you forgot your silence, sullen and scowling,

Did you forget your sullen, scowling silence

And with my palm I smoothed it, so it rose aloft.

Which I leveled with my comfort, so it softened?

نشَّبتَ أوقاتي على خُشُبٍ النوى

نشَّبتَ أوقاتي على خُشُبٍ النوى

أبكي هواني , إذْ نسيتَ الموعِدا

أبكي هواني , إذْ نسيتَ الموعِدا

You pinned my hours to the wood of separation.

You carved my days on the wood of longing

I weep for my humiliation, since you forgot the tryst.

I weep my humiliation, when you forgot the tryst

أقبلْ وكَفِّرعن ذنوبكَ راضخا

أقبلْ وكَفِّرعن ذنوبكَ راضخا

قيَّدت قلبي مجبراً فتقيَّدا

قيَّدت قلبي مجبراً فتقيَّدا

Come, and atone for your sins in submission.

Come and atone for your sins, submitting

You bound my heart by force, so it became bound.

I shackled my heart forcibly, so it was shackled

إنِّي برئتُ الآن من لومٍ مضى

إنِّي برئتُ الآن من لومٍ مضى

جنّدتُ حرفي لاسعاً فتجنَّدا

جنّدتُ حرفي لاسعاً فتجنَّدا

Indeed, I am now free of past blame.

I'm now innocent of blame that passed

I mobilized my words to sting, so they enlisted.

I rallied my words to burn, so they rallied