أَتَيتُI have come لِبابكto Your door العاليlofty بَذليin my abasement
أَتَيتُ لِبابك العالي بَذلي
فَاِنso if لَمnot تَعفYou grant pardon عَنfor زلليmy lapses فَمنthen who ليis there for me
فَاِن لَم تَعف عَن زللي فَمن لي
I have come to Your lofty door in my abasement.
If You do not pardon my lapses, who is there for me?
مقراconfessing بِالجنايَةto wrongdoing وَاِمتِثاليand my obedience
مقرا بِالجنايَة وَاِمتِثالي
لاِمرِto the command of النَفسِthe soul فيin عقديmy binding وَحليand my loosening
لاِمرِ النَفسِ في عقدي وَحلي
Confessing my wrongdoing and my obedience
to my soul's command in all I bind and loose,
وَمُعتَرِفاand confessing بِأَوزارِto burdens of sin ثِقالheavy
وَمُعتَرِفا بِأَوزارِ ثِقال
أَقادI am led لحملهاto bear them طوعاwillingly لِجَهليthrough my ignorance
أَقاد لحملها طوعا لِجَهلي
and acknowledging heavy burdens of sin,
which, in my ignorance, I am willingly led to bear.
أَقرI confess بِزلتيto my lapse منfrom قبلbefore كَيso that لاnot
أَقر بِزلتي من قبل كَي لا
تَقرconfess جَوارِحيmy limbs بِالذَنبِto the sin قَبليbefore me
تَقر جَوارِحي بِالذَنبِ قَبلي
I confess my lapse beforehand, lest
my limbs confess the sin before I do.
أَتَيتI have come وَليand I have ذُنوبsins لَيسَnot تُحصىare counted
أَتَيت وَلي ذُنوب لَيسَ تُحصى
اِقولُI say لِراحميto Him who shows me mercy بِالعَفوِwith pardon كُنbe ليfor me
اِقولُ لِراحمي بِالعَفوِ كُن لي
I have come with sins beyond all counting,
saying to Him who shows me mercy: "Be there for me with pardon."
وَلَمand not اِعددI prepared لِذاكَfor that الحيabode زاداprovisions
وَلَم اِعدد لِذاكَ الحي زادا
اِذwhen الاِظعانthe departing litters قَدalready قامَتhave risen بِحَمليto carry me
اِذ الاِظعان قَد قامَت بِحَملي
Nor have I prepared provisions for that abode,
now that the departing litters have risen to carry me.
وَكَمand how often طافَwent round الغُرورdelusion بِراحwith wine عَجبself-conceit
وَكَم طافَ الغُرور بِراح عَجب
عَلىupon وَلمand not اِفقI recovered منfrom فرقterror خبلىmy madness
عَلى وَلم اِفق من فرق خبلى
How often delusion circled with the wine of conceit
around me, while I never recovered from the terror of my madness!
وَهمتand I became absorbed بِغَفلَتيin my heedlessness فيin عَيبthe faults of غَيريsomeone other than me
وَهمت بِغَفلَتي في عَيب غَيري
وَماand what أَناam I محفلa gathering-place لِلعَيبِfor faults كُلّيall of me
وَما أَنا محفل لِلعَيبِ كُلّي
And in my heedlessness I became absorbed in others' faults,
yet what am I but a gathering-place for faults, through and through?
ضللتI strayed عَنِfrom السَبيلِthe path وَلَمand did not احلهenter it
ضللت عَنِ السَبيلِ وَلَم احله
وَهَلand can يَبدوappear الرَشادُright guidance لِعَينto the eye of مِثليone like me
وَهَل يَبدو الرَشادُ لِعَين مِثلي
I strayed from the path and never entered it;
could right guidance appear to the eye of one like me?
سَعتstrove نَفسيmy soul بِأَنthat أَمشيI walk مُكباbent face-down
سَعت نَفسي بِأَن أَمشي مُكبا
عَلىupon وَجهيmy face لِطاعَتِهاin obedience to it فَوَيليso woe to me
عَلى وَجهي لِطاعَتِها فَوَيلي
My soul strove to have me walk headlong,
upon my face, obeying it—woe to me!
هَدانيguided me ناصِحيmy counselor فَاِزددتyet I grew in غَباfoolishness
هَداني ناصِحي فَاِزددت غَبا
وَقُلتُand I said لِمُرشِديto my guide بِالزَجرrebukingly وَلىgo away!
وَقُلتُ لِمُرشِدي بِالزَجر وَلى
My counselor guided me, yet I grew more foolish,
and I said to my guide in rebuke, "Go away!"
اِراكَI see you بلمتيin my locks ياO شَيبgray hair عظنيadmonish me
اِراكَ بلمتي يا شَيب عظني
وَقُلand say حانَis due الرَحيلdeparture غَداtomorrow لعليperhaps I
وَقُل حانَ الرَحيل غَدا لعلي
I see you in my locks, O gray hair; admonish me,
and say, "Departure is due tomorrow"—perhaps I...
فَأَولfor the first ماthing that تَرىyou see حَدثa grave (conjectural reading) مَهولfearsome
فَأَول ما تَرى حَدث مَهول
تَهيلheaps up ثَراهits earth كَفthe hand of أَخa brother وَخلand a friend
تَهيل ثَراه كَف أَخ وَخل
For the first thing you see is a fearsome grave [reading uncertain],
its earth heaped up by the hand of brother and friend.
وَقَدand already رَجَعواthey have returned كَأَنas though لَمnot يَعرِفونيthey knew me
وَقَد رَجَعوا كَأَن لَم يَعرِفوني
وَهمthough they are نَسيmy kin (conjectural reading) وَأَبنائيand my sons وَأَهليand my family
وَهم نَسي وَأَبنائي وَأَهلي
They have gone back as though they had never known me,
though they are my kin [reading uncertain], my sons, and my family.
وَتَشتَغِلand busy themselves البنونthe sons بِقسمwith dividing مالwealth
وَتَشتَغِل البنون بِقسم مال
أَناI بِسُؤالِهِwith being questioned about it فيin عظمgreat شغلpreoccupation
أَنا بِسُؤالِهِ في عظم شغل
My sons busy themselves dividing wealth,
while I am deeply preoccupied with being questioned about it.
فَأَنتَYou, then لِوfor (fragmentary text) حدبيmy solitude (conjectural reading) وَلكلand for every عاصsinner
فَأَنتَ لِو حدبي وَلكل عاص
لَهfor him رحماكَYour mercy منfrom بَعديafter me وَقَبليand before me
لَه رحماكَ من بَعدي وَقَبلي
You, then, are there for me in my solitude [text uncertain], and for every sinner;
may Your mercy be his, after me and before me.