وددتُI wished لوif only أنيthat I تزوmarry (first part)
وددتُ لو أني تزو
وَجْتُI married (completion) وبيتيand my home يعمرُthrives
وَجْتُ وبيتي يعمرُ
I wished that I might marry,
I wish I had married
and my home be filled with life;
And my home was inhabited
فأغتديso I become منthrough زوجتيmy wife
فأغتدي من زوجتي
فيin راحةcomfort تشتهرُis well known
في راحة تشتهرُ
that through my wife I might come to live
So I could enjoy my wife
in comfort known to all.
In renowned comfort
يغبطenvies admiringly عيشيmy life كلevery زوhusband (first part)
يغبط عيشي كل زو
جhusband (completion) لهنائيat my happiness يبصرlooks
ج لهنائي يبصر
Every husband would envy my life
Every husband would envy my life seeing my bliss
on seeing my happiness.
And that I am truthful
وأنand that أكونI may be صادقاًtruthful
وأن أكون صادقاً
فيماin what بهwith it أعتذرI offer excuses
فيما به أعتذر
And that I might be truthful
In what I apologize for
in the excuses I offer
To her, so I am not forced upon deception and fraud
لهاto her فلاso not علىto الرياpretense (first part)
لها فلا على الريا
ءpretense (completion) والخداعand deceit أُجبَرI am forced
ء والخداع أُجبَر
her, and never be forced
And that I am faithful
into pretense and deceit.
With no malice hidden against her
وأنand that أكونI may be آمناًsafe
وأن أكون آمناً
كيداًa plot لهاof hers يستترlies hidden
كيداً لها يستتر
And that I might be safe
No doubt in my trust
from any scheme she keeps concealed.
Valuing her chastity
لاno ريبةdoubt فيin ثقتيmy trust
لا ريبة في ثقتي
بصونهاin her chastity تؤثِّرaffects
بصونها تؤثِّر
No doubt would shake my trust
This virtuous kingdom must exist
in her chastity.
That which I see its splendid vision in my dreams
لاnot بدan alternative أنthat يوجدexist هthis (first part)
لا بد أن يوجد ه
ذاthis (completion) الملكthe angel المطهرthe purified
ذا الملك المطهر
There must surely exist
I have unwavering confidence
this purified angel,
In it, hopeful wishes bare
هذاthis one الذيwhom أرىI see لهof him
هذا الذي أرى له
فيin الحلمthe dream طيفاًan apparition يبهرdazzles
في الحلم طيفاً يبهر
this one whose apparition I behold
I await everlasting affection
in dreams, dazzling me.
And a fruitful promise from it
ليI have ثقةtrust يحصرهاconfines it
لي ثقة يحصرها
فيهin him رجاءhope مسفرradiant
فيه رجاء مسفر
I have a trust held fast
O maiden, I indeed love you the most
in him by a radiant hope.
So welcome me in your barren abode
أرقبI await وداًaffection دائماًlasting
أرقب وداً دائماً
منهfrom him وعهداًand a pledge يثمرbears fruit
منه وعهداً يثمر
I look for lasting affection
And grace my life’s horizon with dazzling light
from him, and a pledge that bears fruit.
I wanted a wife like no other
أيتهاO العذراءmaiden إنindeed
أيتها العذراء إن
نيI (continuation) فيكfor you صبa lovesick lover أكبرI grow older
ني فيك صب أكبر
O maiden, indeed
That’s why I remain unwed waiting
I am growing older, lovesick for you.
Not arrogant, boastful of herself
فأقبليso come ليزدهيso it may shine
فأقبلي ليزدهي
فيكthrough you مكانيmy dwelling المقفرdesolate
فيك مكاني المقفر
Come, then, so that
Making a fuss in every matter aflame
through you my desolate dwelling may shine.
Or lost in groundless jealousy
وذَهِّبيand gild أُفْقَthe horizon of حياlife (first part)
وذَهِّبي أُفْقَ حيا
تيmy life (completion) بضياءwith light يسحرenchants
تي بضياء يسحر
And gild the horizon of my life
With no thoughts or reason
with a light that enchants.
Jealousy stems from bitter, lethal hatred
إنيindeed I أردتwanted زوجةa wife
إني أردت زوجة
بمثلهاwith one like her لاnot أظفرI obtain
بمثلها لا أظفر
I have wished for a wife
Not wasteful, pilfering my savings
whose like I cannot find.
Not pretentious, shaming and vexing me
لأجلbecause of هذاthis لاnot أزاI cease (first part)
لأجل هذا لا أزا
لI cease (completion) عازباًunmarried أنتظرI wait
ل عازباً أنتظر
For this reason, I remain
Wanting to leave a mark in every art
unmarried, waiting.
Not a preacher, frightening and warning me
لاnot أبتغيI seek مغرورةa conceited woman
لا أبتغي مغرورة
بنفسهاin herself تفتخرshe takes pride
بنفسها تفتخر
I seek no conceited woman,
Lecturing people, gossiping and composing poems
boasting of herself,
Not a loud chatterbox
تجعلmakes فيin كلevery فؤاheart (first part)
تجعل في كل فؤا
دheart (completion) لوعةanguish تستعرblazes
د لوعة تستعر
who makes every heart
Proclaiming everything out loud
burn with anguish.
That's why I remain unwed waiting
أوor ذاتa woman of وهمٍdelusion فيabout سوىother than الthe
أو ذات وهمٍ في سوى ال
غيرةjealousy لاnot تُفَكِّرُshe thinks
غيرة لا تُفَكِّرُ
Nor a deluded woman who thinks
I want to keep authority for myself that's irresistible
of nothing but jealousy;
Disappear from home as desire dictates, I come and go
فإنماfor indeed الغيرةjealousy للfor the
فإنما الغيرة لل
حقدhatred المميتdeadly مصدرa source
حقد المميت مصدر
for jealousy is the source
My soul unrestrained by refusal and disobedience
of deadly hatred.
I hope for a woman of agreeable traits
لاnot أبتغيI seek سلابةa plunderer
لا أبتغي سلابة
تنهبshe plunders ماwhat أدخرI save
تنهب ما أدخر
I seek no plunderer
Beautiful, her image lingering in my heart
who pillages what I save.
Her looks and manners equal
لاnot أبتغيI seek عالمةa learned woman
لا أبتغي عالمة
تحرجنيshe embarrasses me وتضجرand wearies
تحرجني وتضجر
I seek no learned woman
She loves what I love
who embarrasses and wearies me,
Rejects what I reject
تريدshe wants أنthat يبقىremain لهاfor her
تريد أن يبقى لها
فيin كلevery فنart أثرa mark
في كل فن أثر
wanting to leave her mark
Avoids what bores me and I resent
in every art.
And her eyes reflect her heart's purity
لاnot أبتغيI seek واعظةa female preacher
لا أبتغي واعظة
ترهبنيshe frightens me وتنذرand warns
ترهبني وتنذر
I seek no preacher
No pretense in her noble thoughts
who frightens me and issues warnings,
Accompanying me in life's every path and road
تخطبshe addresses فيamong الناسthe people وترand recounts (first part)
تخطب في الناس وتر
وىrecounts (completion) عنهمfrom them وتشعرand composes verse
وى عنهم وتشعر
who addresses the people, quotes
And I'm pleased that she captures my heart
their words, and composes verse.
I think I won't find the one I sought
لاnot أبتغيI seek ثرثارةa chatterbox
لا أبتغي ثرثارة
بكلabout every شيءthing تجهرshe speaks aloud
بكل شيء تجهر
I seek no chatterbox
That's why I remain unwed waiting
who proclaims everything aloud.
I fear my wife would betray and deceive me
لأجلbecause of هذاthis لاnot أزاI cease (first part)
لأجل هذا لا أزا
لI cease (completion) عازباًunmarried أنتظرI wait
ل عازباً أنتظر
For this reason, I remain
Harboring malice against me and plotting my death
unmarried, waiting.
If I was combatting fierce enemies, I would be patient
أريدI want أنto أُبقيkeep لنفfor myself (first part)
أريد أن أُبقي لنف
سيmyself (completion) سلطةauthority لاnot تقهرis overcome
سي سلطة لا تقهر
I want to retain for myself
But I worry for the soul that cannot endure
an authority that cannot be overcome.
Thus I decided that
أغيبI absent myself عنfrom بيتيmy home كماas
أغيب عن بيتي كما
شاءwilled الهوىdesire وأحضرand I come
شاء الهوى وأحضر
I would leave my home as
For my health, it's best to abstain
fancy wills, and return;
That's why I remain unwed waiting
لاnot تنتهيis restrained نفسيmy soul بماby what
لا تنتهي نفسي بما
تأبىshe refuses ولاnor تأتمرobeys orders
تأبى ولا تأتمر
my soul would not be checked by what
I've seen the extreme hardship
she forbids, nor take orders.
Of the many who married
إنِّيَindeed I أرجوI hope for امرأةa woman
إنِّيَ أرجو امرأة
ذاتpossessing صفاتqualities تشكرare praised
ذات صفات تشكر
I long for a woman
I hate to see what
whose qualities are praised:
Other women saw
جميلةbeautiful يدومendures فيin
جميلة يدوم في
قلبيmy heart منهاof her مظهرan image
قلبي منها مظهر
beautiful, whose image endures in
Perhaps what I mentioned
my heart.
Was caution's call
كماas أريدI wish يستويare equal
كما أريد يستوي
منظرهاher appearance والمخبرand the inner nature
منظرها والمخبر
As I wish, let them match:
But nothing in life warns me of danger
her outward appearance and inner nature.
Like avoiding what I fear
تحبshe loves ماwhat أحبهI love it
تحب ما أحبه
تنكرshe rejects ماwhat قدmay أنكرI reject
تنكر ما قد أنكر
She loves what I love,
Yet I loathe that one day
rejects what I reject,
I'll be scorned and derided
تجتنبshe avoids الذيthat which أمَلْI tire of (first part)
تجتنب الذي أمَلْ
لُهI tire of it (completion) ومنهand from it أنفرI recoil
لُه ومنه أنفر
avoids what I grow weary
Mocked all my life, ridiculed
of, and shrink from.
That's why I remain unwed waiting
وعنand of صفاءthe purity of قلبهاher heart
وعن صفاء قلبها
عيونهاher eyes تعبرexpress
عيونها تعبر
And the purity of her heart
is expressed by her eyes,
بلاwithout رياءpretense فيin ضميconscience (first part)
بلا رياء في ضمي
رconscience (completion) الشريفthe honorable man يخطرcomes to mind
ر الشريف يخطر
with no pretense that might enter
an honorable man's mind.
يصحبهاaccompanies her فيin كلevery طوstage (first part)
يصحبها في كل طو
رstage (completion) منof حياتيmy life وطرdesire
ر من حياتي وطر
Desire would attend her through every
stage of my life.
وإننيand indeed I راضcontent بأنthat
وإنني راض بأن
نهاshe (continuation) لقلبيmy heart تأسرshe takes captive
نها لقلبي تأسر
And I am content that
she should take my heart captive.
أظننيI think I علىupon التيthe woman whom
أظنني على التي
طلبتهاI sought her لاnot أعثرI find
طلبتها لا أعثر
I think I shall never find
the woman I have sought.
لأجلbecause of هذاthis لاnot أزاI cease (first part)
لأجل هذا لا أزا
لI cease (completion) عازباًunmarried أنتظرI wait
ل عازباً أنتظر
For this reason, I remain
unmarried, waiting.
أخافI fear أنthat امرأتيmy wife
أخاف أن امرأتي
تخوننيbetrays me وتغدرand acts treacherously
تخونني وتغدر
I fear that my wife
would betray me and be treacherous,
فتضمرso she conceals العنادdefiance ليagainst me
فتضمر العناد لي
والموتand death فيماin what تضمرshe conceals
والموت فيما تضمر
concealing defiance against me,
with death in what she hides.
لوif أننيthat I فيin بأسthe strength of مَتMithridates (first part)
لو أنني في بأس مَت
ريداتَMithridates (completion) كنتُI would أصبرendure
ريداتَ كنتُ أصبر
If I had the strength of
Mithridates, I would endure.
لكننيbut I أضنI am sparing بالof the
لكنني أضن بال
نفسself التيwhich لاnot تقدرcan endure
نفس التي لا تقدر
But I cherish my own
self, which cannot endure;
لذاtherefore قضتit decreed بأننيthat I
لذا قضت بأنني
لصحتيfor my health أوفّرI conserve
لصحتي أوفّر
so it has decreed that I
should safeguard my health.
لأجلbecause of هذاthis لاnot أزاI cease (first part)
لأجل هذا لا أزا
لI cease (completion) عازباًunmarried أنتظرI wait
ل عازباً أنتظر
For this reason, I remain
unmarried, waiting.
إنيindeed I راءٍseeing ضيقَthe distress of مَنْthose who
إني راءٍ ضيقَ مَنْ
تزوجواthey married معتبرtaking warning
تزوجوا معتبر
I see the distress of those
who married, and take warning
بالشدةfrom the hardship التيwhich هوىfell
بالشدة التي هوى
فيهاinto it العديدthe many الأكثرthe majority
فيها العديد الأكثر
from the hardship into which
so many—the great majority—have fallen.
أكرهI hate أنto أنظرI see ماwhat
أكره أن أنظر ما
منfrom النساءwomen نظرواthey saw
من النساء نظروا
I hate to see what
they have seen of women.
وربماand perhaps كانwas الذيwhat
وربما كان الذي
عنهنabout them صرتI have come to أذكرI mention
عنهن صرت أذكر
And perhaps what
I have come to say about them
تغالياexaggeration منيon my part قدalready
تغاليا مني قد
دعاprompted إليهto it الحذرcaution
دعا إليه الحذر
has been exaggeration on my part,
prompted by caution.
فماfor no علىto الحياةlife ممfrom (continued)
فما على الحياة مم
ماwhat أتقيهI guard against it خطرdanger
ما أتقيه خطر
For there is no danger to life
in what I guard against.
لكننيbut I أكرهI hate أنthat
لكنني أكره أن
نيI (continuation) فيin غدٍtomorrow أُحْتَقَرُI am despised
ني في غدٍ أُحْتَقَرُ
But I hate the thought that
I might be despised tomorrow,
فيستهانso contempt is shown بيto me مدىthroughout
فيستهان بي مدى
عمريmy life ومنيand at me يسخرpeople mock
عمري ومني يسخر
then held in contempt throughout
my life, and mocked.
لأجلbecause of هذاthis لاnot أزاI cease (first part)
لأجل هذا لا أزا
لI cease (completion) عازباًunmarried أنتظرI wait
ل عازباً أنتظر
For this reason, I remain
unmarried, waiting.
Partial English translation: 70 of 112 Arabic lines translated.