كيفhow أنساهI forget him هلdoes…? تناسيهpretending to forget him يجديhelps؟
كيف أنساه هل تناسيه يجدي؟
وهوand he والذكرياتand the memories والشوقand longing عنديwith me
وهو والذكريات والشوق عندي
How can I forget him? Does pretending to forget him help?
How can I forget him, does forgetting help?
And he, the memories, and longing are with me.
He is with my memories and longing.
وهوand he أدنىcloser منthan الأمانيwishes إلىto القلبthe heart،
وهو أدنى من الأماني إلى القلب،
وبينيand between me وبينهand between him… ألفa thousand بعدdistance
وبيني وبينه... ألف بعد
And he is closer to the heart than wishes,
He is closer to my heart than wishes,
And between him and me lie a thousand distances.
And between us... a thousand distances.
واشتهاءand yearning العناقfor an embrace يحلمdreams فيin جيديmy neck
واشتهاء العناق يحلم في جيدي
بانفاسهof his breaths فيمرحso it frolics عقديmy necklace
بانفاسه فيمرح عقدي
And yearning for an embrace dreams at my neck
Yearning for his embrace dreams on my cheek,
Of his breath, so my necklace dances.
His breath plays with my pearls.
عندماwhen يهبطdescends الظلامdarkness أراهI see him
عندما يهبط الظلام أراه
ماثلاًpresent فيin تصوراتيmy imaginings وسهديand my sleeplessness
ماثلاً في تصوراتي وسهدي
When darkness descends, I see him
When darkness descends I see him
Present in my imaginings and sleeplessness.
Standing in my imagination and pillow.
آهah إنيindeed I أخالimagine زنديهhis forearms فيaround قديmy figure
آه إني أخال زنديه في قدي
تشدَّاننيthey clasp me tight فيختالso it sways proudly.. قديmy figure
تشدَّانني فيختال.. قدي
Ah, I imagine his forearms around my body,
Ah, I imagine his body in my arms,
Clasping me tight, so my body sways proudly.
They pull me, so he struts... my body.
فكأنيso it is as though I أضمهembrace him فيin فراشيmy bed
فكأني أضمه في فراشي
وهوand he يجنيharvests فميmy mouth ويقطفand plucks خديmy cheek
وهو يجني فمي ويقطف خدي
So it is as though I embrace him in my bed,
It's as if I'm holding him on my bed,
While he harvests my mouth and plucks my cheek.
As he harvests my lips and plucks my cheek.
ثمthen أصغيI listen إلىto الفرشthe bedding فلاso not أسمعI hear
ثم أصغي إلى الفرش فلا أسمع
إلاexcept حديثtalk نهدٍa breast لنهدto a breast
إلا حديث نهدٍ لنهد
Then I listen to the bedding and hear nothing
Then I listen to the mattress but hear only
But the talk of one breast to another.
The talk of a breast for a breast.
حلمٌa dream كاليقينlike certainty يدنيهbrings him close منيto me،
حلمٌ كاليقين يدنيه مني،
وخيالand a vision يخفيهhides him عنيfrom me ويبديand reveals him
وخيال يخفيه عني ويبدي
A dream, like certainty, brings him close to me,
A dream brings him close to me, like certainty
And a vision hides him from me and reveals him.
And imagination hides him from me and shows him.
فأرىso I see طيفهhis phantom أواناًat times حنوناًtender
فأرى طيفه أواناً حنوناً
وأواناًand at times فيin مقلتيهhis eyes تعديaggression
وأواناً في مقلتيه تعدي
So I see his phantom tender at times,
So I see his ghost sometimes affectionate
And at others, aggression in his eyes.
And sometimes insolent in his gaze.
ليتif only أنيI أراهsee him فيin صحوةthe awakening الصبحof morning
ليت أني أراه في صحوة الصبح
فماًa mouth ضارعاًpleading يغنيsings بحمديin praise of me
فماً ضارعاً يغني بحمدي
If only I could see him as morning wakes,
If only I could see him at dawn’s awakening
A pleading mouth singing my praises.
A mouth competing to sing my praise.
كلماwhenever ذابhe melted فيin الخشوعhumble submission تأبيتI resisted
كلما ذاب في الخشوع تأبيت
ورديتand I rebuffed رغبتيmy desire شرthe worst ردrejection
ورديت رغبتي شر رد
Whenever he melted in submission, I would resist,
Whenever he melts in devotion I refuse
And rebuff my desire with the harshest rejection,
And return my desire an evil refusal.
وتحديتand I defied ناظريهhis eyes بإعراضيby my turning away
وتحديت ناظريه بإعراضي
وأشعلتand I kindled حبهhis love بالتحديthrough defiance
وأشعلت حبه بالتحدي
And defy his eyes by turning away,
I challenge his eyes with my indifference
And kindle his love through defiance,
And ignite his love with defiance.
وتجاهلتهand I ignored him وقلبيand my heart يناديهcalls to him
وتجاهلته وقلبي يناديه
وجسميand my body يكادnearly يحرقburns برديmy cloak
وجسمي يكاد يحرق بردي
And ignore him while my heart called to him,
I ignore him while my heart calls him
And my body nearly burned my cloak.
And my body almost burns with chill.
ثمthen يجترنيdraws me in ويجذبand pulls جسميmy body
ثم يجترني ويجذب جسمي
حضنهhis embrace جذبthe pull of قاهرٍa conqueror مستبدtyrannical
حضنه جذب قاهرٍ مستبد
Then I am drawn in, my body pulled
Then he pulls me and draws my body
By his embrace, with a tyrannical conqueror's force.
With a grasp of coercive despot.
وهناand here: أحتويهI enfold him بينbetween ذراعيmy arms،
وهنا: أحتويه بين ذراعي،
وأطويهand I fold him بينbetween لحميmy flesh وجلديand my skin
وأطويه بين لحمي وجلدي
And here I enfold him between my arms,
And fold him between my flesh and skin.
And fold him between my flesh and skin.
If only I had what I wished or if only I were
ليتif only ليmine ماwhat رجوتI hoped for أوor ليتنيif only I أمbeginning of 'I erase him'
ليت لي ما رجوت أو ليتني أم
حوهcompletion of 'I erase him': منيfrom me منfrom ذكرياتيmy memories ووجديand my longing
حوه: مني من ذكرياتي ووجدي
If only I had what I hoped for—or could erase
A mother: I would possess him from my memories and being.
Him from myself, from my memories and my longing.
If only I knew, O hell of separation,
ليتنيif only I ياO جهنمhell الهجرof separation أدريI know
ليتني يا جهنم الهجر أدري
منwho هواهhis beloved ومنand whom تبدلhe chose instead بعديafter me؟!
من هواه ومن تبدل بعدي؟!
If only, O hell of separation, I knew
Who has changed him after me?!
Who his beloved is, and whom he chose after me!
If only he was abandoned in sorrows like me,
ليتهif only he فيamid الشجونsorrows مثليlike me مهجورforsaken
ليته في الشجون مثلي مهجور
فيشتاقنيso he longs for me ويذكرand remembers عهديmy pledge
فيشتاقني ويذكر عهدي
If only, amid sorrows, he were forsaken like me,
To long for me and remember my covenant.
So he would long for me and remember my pledge,
And suffers from love and torment like I
ويعانيand endures الجوىlove's anguish ويشقىand suffers كماas أشbeginning of 'I suffer'
ويعاني الجوى ويشقى كما أش
قىcompletion of 'I suffer'، بأطيافهfrom his phantoms وذكراهand his memory وحديby myself
قى، بأطيافه وذكراه وحدي
And endure love's anguish and suffer as I
Torment, with his ghosts, memories and loneliness.
Suffer alone from his phantoms and his memory.
Thus I translated the melodies, and the night is
هكذاthus ترجمتshe voiced مناهاher wishes وللليـand the night has (word begins)
هكذا ترجمت مناها وللليـ
ـلcompletion of 'night' عبوسٌa scowl، كأنهas though it were موجa wave of حقدmalice
ـل عبوسٌ، كأنه موج حقد
Thus she voiced her wishes, while the night
Gloomy, like a wave of hatred.
Wore a scowl, like a wave of malice.
The darkness, the darkness in every sight
والظلامand darkness الظلامdarkness فيin كلevery مرأىsight
والظلام الظلام في كل مرأى
قدرٌa fate جاثمٌcrouching يخيفfrightens ويرديand kills
قدرٌ جاثمٌ يخيف ويردي
And darkness—darkness in every sight—
A crouching fate that frightens and ruins.
Is a crouching fate that frightens and strikes down,
Silent, and insolence in his gaze
صامتٌsilent والعتوand insolence فيin مقلتيهits eyes
صامتٌ والعتو في مقلتيه
ظامىءٌthirsty كالسلاحlike a weapon فيin كفthe hand of وغدa scoundrel
ظامىءٌ كالسلاح في كف وغد
Silent, with insolence in its eyes,
Thirsty like a weapon in palm and tomorrow.
Thirsty as a weapon in a scoundrel's hand.
Imaginations are a procession of the confused
والخيالاتand the phantoms موكبٌa procession منof حيارىbewildered people
والخيالات موكبٌ من حيارى
تائهٌa lost one يهتديfinds his way وحيرانand a bewildered one يهديguides
تائهٌ يهتدي وحيران يهدي
And the phantoms are a procession of the bewildered:
Lost, guided, and the guided misleads.
A lost one finds his way, and a bewildered one guides.
And the longing for morning in the soul of the breeze
وحنينand yearning الصباحmorning فيin خاطرthe mind of الأنسامthe breezes
وحنين الصباح في خاطر الأنسام
كالعطرlike perfume فيin براعمbuds وردroses
كالعطر في براعم ورد
And morning's yearning in the breezes' mind
Is like the scent in rosebuds and flowers.
Is like perfume in rosebuds.
Partial English translation: 47 of 48 Arabic lines translated.