كَتمتُ الهَوىَ حتَّى تَبَدَّت سِمَاتُهُ
فَحُقِّقَ حُبٌّ كانَ في حَيِّزِ الشَّكِّ
I concealed love until its signs appeared,
so a love once in the realm of doubt was confirmed.
كَحَلتُ جُفُونِي بالسُّهادِ عُقوبَةً
لِسِرٍّ يُرَى بَينَ التَّقلُّبِ والسَّفكِ
I lined my eyelids with sleeplessness as punishment
for a secret seen amid tossing and the shedding of tears.
كَلِفتُ بِحِبٍّ لا أسَمِّيهِ هَيبَةً
وَليسَ يَصُدَّ الخَتمُ عَن عَبَقِ المسكِ
I became enamored of a beloved whom I do not name, out of awe;
yet no seal can hold back the fragrance of musk.
كَنَيتُ عَنِ المَحبُوبِ بالغَيرِ غَيرةً
وَقَلبي بَرِيءٌ في هَوَاهُ مِنَ الشِّركِ
I referred to the beloved by another's name, out of jealousy,
and my heart, in loving him, is free of divided devotion.
كَبِيرٌ عَلَى قَلبِي وَحُلؤٌ علَى فَمِي
فَما أنَا مِن حُبِّي وذِكري بمُنفَكِّ
It weighs heavily on my heart, yet is sweet upon my lips,
so I cannot part from my love and remembrance.
كَسَانِي الضَّنَى فِي قُربهِ خَوفَ بُعدِهِ
ولا شيء بَعدَ الوَصلِ أنكى مِنَ التَّركِ
Even in his nearness, fear of his distance clothed me in wasting sickness,
and after union, nothing wounds more deeply than abandonment.
كِلا حَالتي هَذَا الهوَى حَالُ لَذَّةٍ
فَسِيَّانِ عِندِي حِينَ أضحَكُ أو أبكِي
Both states of this love are states of delight,
so it is all the same to me whether I laugh or weep.
كَفى حَزَناً أنِّي أَسِيرُ صَبابَةٍ
ولا طَمَعٌ لي في فِداءٍ وَفي فَكِّ
It is sorrow enough that I am a captive of ardent longing,
and I have no hope of ransom or release.
كشَفتُ حِجابَ القًلبِ عَمَّا وَراءَهُ
فَعَايَنتُ بَحراً لَيسَ يُعبَرُ بالفُلكِ
I lifted the heart's veil from what lay behind it,
then I beheld a sea that cannot be crossed by ships.
كمالُ المُنَى إن كُنتَ تَرغَبُ في المُنى
إذا فَنِيَ المَملُوكُ في مالِكِ الملُكِ
The fulfillment of wishes, if you seek what you wish for,
is when the slave is effaced in the Master of dominion.
Sol 6.1