تخلفت يوماً بعد جهد وشقة
فقالوا تخلى الدائب المتجلدُ
I stayed back for a day after toil and hardship,
So they said, “The tireless, steadfast man has given up.”
أولئك عذالي أبوا ليَ راحة
وقد علموا أني الأمين المهدد
Those reproachers of mine denied me any rest,
Though they knew I was the trustworthy one under threat.
وما كان من قومي وهم يدفعونني
إلى أجلي إلا الصياح المردد
And nothing came from my people, as they drove me
Toward my death, but repeated cries.
وهم زحزحوني عن مكانيَ بينهم
فغادرت ما أرعى وما أتعهد
And they pushed me from my place among them,
So I left behind what I tended and what I cared for.
فلا يحتويني محفل من شبابهم
ولا يتلقاني مع الشيب معبد
So no gathering of their young men takes me in,
Nor does a temple welcome me among the gray-haired.
أداري العدى فيما أرى اليوم منهمُ
مخافة ما يأتي به منهم الغد
I placate my foes over what I see from them today,
For fear of what tomorrow may bring from them.
وأقنع منهم بالسلامة وحدها
وغيري عليهم ثائر متمرد
And I am content with safety alone from them,
While others rise against them, rebellious and defiant.
عرفت الذين الخير والشر عندهم
فسرت إليهم وافياً أتودد
I knew those with good and evil at their disposal,
So I went to them loyally, seeking their affection.
ولم يغنهم أني طليق مخير
ولم يعنهم أني حبيس مقيد
Nor did it benefit them that I was unfettered and free to choose,
Nor did it concern them that I was imprisoned and bound,
وأني لراض عنهمُ ما تلطفوا
ولي عندهم نجوى وعندي لهم يد
And that I am indeed content with them so long as they show kindness;
And I speak with them in confidence, and owe them a debt of gratitude.
دعوني وشأني ليلة أو ليالياً
أعاود فها قوتي وأجدد
Leave me alone for a night or several nights,
To regain my strength in that time and renew myself.
ولو شئت أن أبقى سعيداً تركتكم
ولكنني باق لأشقى وتسعدوا
Had I wished to remain happy, I would have left you,
But I remain, so that I may suffer and you may be happy.
Sol 6.1