خَجِلْتُ لِطُولِ مَا عَاهَدتُ رَبِّي

خَجِلْتُ لِطُولِ مَا عَاهَدتُ رَبِّي

عَلَى التَّقْوَى، وَمَا جَدَّدْتُ تَوْبِي

عَلَى التَّقْوَى، وَمَا جَدَّدْتُ تَوْبِي

I have grown ashamed at how long I have pledged myself to my Lord,

I am ashamed of how often I have pledged to my Lord

To piety, yet have never renewed my repentance.

to live in piety, and how often I have renewed my repentance.

أُعَاهِدُهُ دُجًى وَأَعُودُ ظُهْرًا

أُعَاهِدُهُ دُجًى وَأَعُودُ ظُهْرًا

وَأَسْأَلُهُ دُجًى غُفْرَانَ ذَنْبِي

وَأَسْأَلُهُ دُجًى غُفْرَانَ ذَنْبِي

I pledge myself to Him by night, then relapse by noon,

I pledge to Him in night's darkness, and relapse at noon,

And by night I ask Him to forgive my sin.

and in night's darkness ask Him to forgive my sin.

خَجِلْتُ، إِلاَمَ أَبْقَى وَالمَعَاصِي

خَجِلْتُ، إِلاَمَ أَبْقَى وَالمَعَاصِي

كَمَوْجِ البَحْرِ فِي دَفْعٍ وَجَذْبِ

كَمَوْجِ البَحْرِ فِي دَفْعٍ وَجَذْبِ

I am ashamed—how long shall I remain while transgressions

I am ashamed—how long shall I go on, with sins

Are like the waves of the sea in their thrust and pull?

like the sea's waves in their push and pull?

فَمَا مِنْ مَوْسِمٍ لِلْخَيْرِ وَلَّى

فَمَا مِنْ مَوْسِمٍ لِلْخَيْرِ وَلَّى

وَلَمْ يَعْجَبْ لِحَالِي أَيُّ عَجْبِ!

وَلَمْ يَعْجَبْ لِحَالِي أَيُّ عَجْبِ!

No season of goodness has ever passed

For no season of goodness has passed

Without marveling utterly at my condition!

without being utterly astonished at my state!

إِذَا رَمَضَانُ أَقْبَلَ قُلْتُ: هَذَا

إِذَا رَمَضَانُ أَقْبَلَ قُلْتُ: هَذَا

لَمَوْسِمُ تَوْبَةٍ وَهُدًى وَقُرْبِ

لَمَوْسِمُ تَوْبَةٍ وَهُدًى وَقُرْبِ

Whenever Ramadan arrives, I say: This

When Ramadan comes, I say: This

Is surely a season of repentance, guidance, and nearness.

is indeed a season of repentance, guidance, and nearness.

وَأَزْمَعُ أَنْ يَكُونَ النُّورُ رُوحِي

وَأَزْمَعُ أَنْ يَكُونَ النُّورُ رُوحِي

وَأَطْمَعُ أَنْ يَكُونَ الطُّهْرُ ثَوْبِي

وَأَطْمَعُ أَنْ يَكُونَ الطُّهْرُ ثَوْبِي

I resolve that light shall be my spirit,

And I resolve that light shall be my spirit,

And hope that purity shall be my garment.

and I hope that purity shall be my garment.

وَفِي عَرَفَاتِ عَامًا بَعْدَ عَامٍ

وَفِي عَرَفَاتِ عَامًا بَعْدَ عَامٍ

أَتُوبُ، غَدَاةَ أَصْمُتُ، أَوْ أُلَبِّي

أَتُوبُ، غَدَاةَ أَصْمُتُ، أَوْ أُلَبِّي

And at ʿArafat, year after year,

And at Arafat, year after year,

I repent at dawn, whether silent or chanting “Labbayk.”

I repent in the morning, whether silent or chanting the pilgrim's response;

وَأَرْجِعُ بَعْدَهَا مِنْ حَيْثُ آتِي

وَأَرْجِعُ بَعْدَهَا مِنْ حَيْثُ آتِي

إِلَى خَطَئِي وَزَلاَّتِي وَكَرْبِي

إِلَى خَطَئِي وَزَلاَّتِي وَكَرْبِي

Then afterward I return the way I came,

and afterward I return whence I came,

To my errors, my lapses, and my anguish.

to my wrongdoing, my lapses, and my anguish.

فَهَلْ كُلُّ الْمَوَاسِمِ كُنَّ بُورًا

فَهَلْ كُلُّ الْمَوَاسِمِ كُنَّ بُورًا

وَلَمْ يُفْلِحْنَ فِي إِخْصَابِ جَدْبِي؟!

وَلَمْ يُفْلِحْنَ فِي إِخْصَابِ جَدْبِي؟!

So were all those seasons barren, then,

So have all the seasons been barren,

And did they fail to make my barrenness fruitful?!

and failed to bring fertility to my barrenness?

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أَلاَ إِنِّي لَأَعْلَمُ أَنَّ يَوْمِي

أَلاَ إِنِّي لَأَعْلَمُ أَنَّ يَوْمِي

كَأَمْسِي، ضَاعَ فِي لَعِبٍ وَرُعْبِ

كَأَمْسِي، ضَاعَ فِي لَعِبٍ وَرُعْبِ

Behold, I know full well that my day,

Indeed, I know full well that my day,

Like my yesterday, was lost in play and fear,

like my yesterday, was wasted in play and dread,

وَفِي أَشْوَاقِ رُوحٍ لاَ تُلَبَّى

وَفِي أَشْوَاقِ رُوحٍ لاَ تُلَبَّى

تُبَعْثِرُهَا الرِّيَاحُ بِكُلِّ صَوْبِ

تُبَعْثِرُهَا الرِّيَاحُ بِكُلِّ صَوْبِ

And in the longings of a soul never fulfilled,

and in a soul's unfulfilled longings,

Scattered by the winds in every direction,

scattered by the winds in every direction,

وَآمَالٍ عِذَابٍ قَدْ تَهَاوَتْ

وَآمَالٍ عِذَابٍ قَدْ تَهَاوَتْ

كَمَا تَهْوِي المُنَى فِي صَدْرِ صَبِّ

كَمَا تَهْوِي المُنَى فِي صَدْرِ صَبِّ

And in sweet hopes that have come crashing down,

and sweet hopes that have collapsed,

As cherished wishes fall within an ardent lover’s breast.

as wishes fall within a lover's breast.

وَلَكِنِّي أُعَزِّي النَّفْسَ أَنِّي

وَلَكِنِّي أُعَزِّي النَّفْسَ أَنِّي

أَشُقُّ مِنَ الصُّخُورِ الصُّمِّ دَرْبِي

أَشُقُّ مِنَ الصُّخُورِ الصُّمِّ دَرْبِي

Yet I console myself with this: that I

But I console myself with the thought that I

Hew my path through solid, deaf rocks,

carve my path through solid rocks,

وَأُبْرِمُ بِالصَّغَائِرِ مِنْ ذُنُوبِي

وَأُبْرِمُ بِالصَّغَائِرِ مِنْ ذُنُوبِي

وَأَجْتَنِبُ الكَبَائِرَ، وَهْيَ تَسْبِي

وَأَجْتَنِبُ الكَبَائِرَ، وَهْيَ تَسْبِي

Grow weary of the lesser sins among my sins,

and chafe at the lesser of my sins,

And shun the major ones, though they take captive.

and shun the major sins, though they captivate me,

وَأَسْعَى نَحْوَ رَبِّي فِي ثَبَاتٍ

وَأَسْعَى نَحْوَ رَبِّي فِي ثَبَاتٍ

وَأَمْنَحُهُ بِحُبٍّ ذَوْبَ قَلْبِي.

وَأَمْنَحُهُ بِحُبٍّ ذَوْبَ قَلْبِي.

I move steadfastly toward my Lord,

and strive toward my Lord with steadfastness,

And lovingly offer Him the molten essence of my heart.

and offer Him, with love, my heart's molten essence.