إليكَ عَزَفْتُ عَن خَلَجاتِ نَفْسي

إليكَ عَزَفْتُ عَن خَلَجاتِ نَفْسي

وتُبْتُ إليكَ مِن طُغيانِ جِنسي

وتُبْتُ إليكَ مِن طُغيانِ جِنسي

To You I turned, away from the stirrings of my soul.

To you I played the tunes of my soul's turmoil

And I repented to You of the transgression of my kind.

And repented to you from my gender's tyranny

ولازَمْتُ الرَّجاءَ وبِتُّ أَخشى

ولازَمْتُ الرَّجاءَ وبِتُّ أَخشى

عِتابَكَ أو حِسابَكَ عِندَ رَمْسِي

عِتابَكَ أو حِسابَكَ عِندَ رَمْسِي

And I clung to hope and spent the night fearing

And held onto hope and spent nights fearful

Your reproach or Your reckoning at my grave.

Of your rebuke or judgement at my demise

وأنتَ إذا دَجا بِالإثْمِ قَلبي

وأنتَ إذا دَجا بِالإثْمِ قَلبي

تُنِيرُ بَصِيرتي وتُبِيدُ نَحْسي

تُنِيرُ بَصِيرتي وتُبِيدُ نَحْسي

And You, when my heart grows dark with sin,

And when my heart is shrouded with sin

Illuminate my inner sight and banish my misfortune.

You enlighten my insight and eliminate my ill-fate

وأنتَ المُسْتَعانُ على هُمومي

وأنتَ المُسْتَعانُ على هُمومي

وأنتَ اليومَ لي وغَدِي وأَمْسي

وأنتَ اليومَ لي وغَدِي وأَمْسي

And You are the One whose help I seek against my worries.

You're the one I seek aid from against my worries

And You are my today, my tomorrow, and my yesterday.

You're my today, tomorrow and yesterday

أَهِيمُ صَبابَةً وأَذُوبُ وَجْدًا

أَهِيمُ صَبابَةً وأَذُوبُ وَجْدًا

إليكَ، وكم أَخافُ جُمُوحَ نَفْسي

إليكَ، وكم أَخافُ جُمُوحَ نَفْسي

I wander in yearning and melt with passion

I obsess and melt in ecstasy, longing for you

For You—and how I fear my soul's unruliness!

Yet I fear the recklessness of my own soul

أَفِرُّ إليكَ أَهْرُبُ مِن دِياري

أَفِرُّ إليكَ أَهْرُبُ مِن دِياري

ومِن أَهلي ومِن وَهْمِي وحَدْسِي

ومِن أَهلي ومِن وَهْمِي وحَدْسِي

I flee to You, escaping from my homeland,

I flee to you, escaping from my home

And from my family, and from my delusion and my intuition,

And my family, my delusions and intuitions

إلى دارٍ أراكَ به عَفُوًّا

إلى دارٍ أراكَ به عَفُوًّا

غَفُورًا كلَّ زَلَّاتي ورِجْسِي

غَفُورًا كلَّ زَلَّاتي ورِجْسِي

To an abode where I see You as ever-pardoning,

To a house where I see you forgiving

Forgiving all my lapses and my impurity.

All my mistakes and impurities as the Most Forgiving

أُحِبُّكَ أنتَ تعلمُ سرَّ قلبي

أُحِبُّكَ أنتَ تعلمُ سرَّ قلبي

وأنتَ لِجُرحِ شَكْوَايَ المُؤَسِّي

وأنتَ لِجُرحِ شَكْوَايَ المُؤَسِّي

I love You; You know the secret of my heart.

You know the secret of my heart that I love you

And You are the healer of my lament's wound.

And you're the healer of my sorrowful grievance

وأنتَ تَرَى وتَسْمَعُ هَمْسَ رُوحي

وأنتَ تَرَى وتَسْمَعُ هَمْسَ رُوحي

ووَسواسي وأوهامي وحَدسي

ووَسواسي وأوهامي وحَدسي

And You see and hear my soul's whisper,

You see and hear the whispers of my soul

And my obsessive doubts, and my delusions, and my intuition.

And my obsessions, imaginations and hunches

فكم عافَيْتَني، وشَفَيْتَ دائي

فكم عافَيْتَني، وشَفَيْتَ دائي

وكم أَبْدَلْتَني يُسْرًا بِبُؤْسي

وكم أَبْدَلْتَني يُسْرًا بِبُؤْسي

For how often You have restored me to health and cured my illness!

So how much you've pardoned me, and cured my pain

And how often You have given me ease in place of my misery!

And replaced my misery with ease so many times