إِنَّ ذَنبي وَاللَه ذَنب كَبير
غَير أَني بحلمكم أَستَجير
Indeed, my sin, by God, is a great sin.
Indeed, my sin - by Allah - is a grave sin
Yet I seek refuge in your forbearance.
Though through your forbearance I seek deliverance
ضاقَ صَدري وَأَخجَل الذَنب وَجهي
وَاِعتَراني من الحَيا تَغيير
My breast grew tight, and sin shamed my face,
My breast grew constrained, and the sin made my face blush in shame
And shame wrought a change in me.
And repentance led me to change my ways in life
وَتَأسفت حين كان الَّذي كا
نَ وَلكن جَرى بِهِ المَقدور
And I felt remorse when what was done was done;
And I grieved when what happened had happened
Yet what was decreed came to pass.
Yet destiny had its course set out
وَتَأَخرت عن لقاكم حياء
ثُمّ اني أَعياني التَأخير
And I delayed meeting you out of shame;
And I hesitated to meet you out of shyness
Then the delay exhausted me.
But then my procrastination distressed me
وَتَرَكت الحُضور بَينَ يَديكم
خَجلا حين عمني التَقصير
And I ceased to come before you,
And I neglected to present myself before you
Out of shame, when my failings overwhelmed me.
Ashamed when neglect had marred me
وَتسترب بِالتغفل وَالجه
ل وَما كل مذنب مَستور
And I concealed myself [uncertain reading] through heedlessness and ignorance;
And I covered myself with disregard and ignorance
Yet not every sinner is concealed.
Yet not every sinner can remain hidden
وَكَم اِشتَقت لِلحُضور اِلَيكُم
ثَم اني أَقول كَيفَ الحُضور
And how often I longed to come to you,
And how much I yearned to be present before you
Then I say: how can I come?
But then I say - how can I be present?
وَتَفكرت في الخَلاص من الذَ
نب فَاَعيا فُؤادي التَفكير
And I pondered deliverance from sin;
And I pondered over salvation from sin
So reflection exhausted my heart.
My heart racked in thought
وَتَوالَت عَلَيّ أَفكار سوء
أَقلقتني وَاِحتار فيها الضَمير
And evil thoughts came upon me one after another;
And evil notions thronged me
They troubled me, and my conscience was bewildered by them.
Disquieting me, and confusing my conscience
لكن العَفو لَيس يبعد عَنكُم
فَعَسى أَن يصح قَلب كَسير
But forgiveness is not far from you,
But forgiveness is not far from you
So may a broken heart be made whole.
So perhaps a broken heart may yet heal
ان ظني وَاللَه فيكم جَميل
وَلساني عن اِعتِذاري قَصير
Indeed, my opinion of you, by God, is good,
For surely - by Allah - I think well of you
And my tongue falls short in offering my apology.
Though my tongue falls short in expressing my apology
سعة الصَدر قَد دَعَتني اِلى ما
كانَ مني وَالحلم عَنكُم شَهير
Your breadth of heart led me to what
Breadth of heart invited me to what I had done
I did; and your forbearance is renowned.
While forbearance from you is well known
شيمَة الاكرَمين عَفو وَصفح
كل ذنب لَدَيكُم مَغفور
Pardon and forgiveness are the way of the noblest;
It is the way of the noblest to pardon and overlook
With you, every sin is forgiven.
Every sin by you is forgiven
Sol 6.1