إنىindeed I أسحبI draw back أقدامىmy feet
إنى أسحب أقدامى
منfrom تحتbeneath بساطكyour carpet أرتحلُI depart ..
من تحت بساطك أرتحلُ ..
Indeed, I draw back my feet;
I withdraw my feet
from beneath your carpet I depart.
From beneath your carpet, I leave...
وand أقولI say وداعاًfarewell قدalready سبقتpreceded
و أقول وداعاً قد سبقت
حزنىmy sorrow منfrom بعدُafterward ومنand from قبلُbeforehand
حزنى من بعدُ ومن قبلُ
And I say farewell; already preceding
And I say farewell, my sadness
my sorrow, afterward and before,
Had come before and after
نظراتglances صرتI began أُخبؤهاI hide them
نظرات صرت أُخبؤها
برموشin the lashes of الطرفthe eye المنهطلُstreaming with tears
برموش الطرف المنهطلُ
were glances I began to hide
Glances I started hiding
in the lashes of my tear-streaming eyes.
Behind my dripping eyelashes
أغلقتI closed منابركyour pulpits الأولىthe first
أغلقت منابرك الأولى
خلفbehind الأوهامillusions وand لاno أملُhope
خلف الأوهام و لا أملُ
I closed your first pulpits
I closed your first pulpits
behind illusions, and there is no hope.
Behind illusions, and no hope
الآنnow أُبارحI leave أحلاماًdreams
الآن أُبارح أحلاماً
حمَلَتهاbore them فىin شغفpassion مُقَلُeyes
حمَلَتها فى شغف مُقَلُ
Now I leave behind dreams
Now I leave dreams
that eyes bore in passion.
That carried passionate ardour
وand أخذتI took عصاتىmy staff وand رجعتI returned
و أخذت عصاتى و رجعت
وعدكyour promise منfrom حبىmy love ينفصلُbreaks away
وعدك من حبى ينفصلُ
And I took my staff and returned;
And took my stick and went back
your promise breaks away from my love.
Your promise of love disconnects
وand أقولI say عساكperhaps you will تتابعنىfollow me
و أقول عساك تتابعنى
كلماتwords تصلُarrive وand ماnot وw- (part of 'arrived') صلواthey arrived (split spelling)
كلمات تصلُ و ما و صلوا
And I say: perhaps you will follow me.
And I say may you follow me
Words arrive, but they have not arrived—
Words that arrive but never connected
أحبابىmy loved ones بالوجدwith longing الراوىthat waters
أحبابى بالوجد الراوى
آفاقىmy horizons تيهاًbewilderment يشتعلُblazes
آفاقى تيهاً يشتعلُ
my loved ones—with the longing that waters
My loved ones with fervent desire
my horizons, a bewilderment ablaze.
My horizons blazing chaos
أناI لستI am not اكذبI belie أنفاسىmy breaths
أنا لست اكذب أنفاسى
إنif سابقraced against عينيكyour eyes الوجلُdread
إن سابق عينيك الوجلُ
I do not belie my breaths,
I won't lie to my breaths
if dread raced against your eyes.
If the fear of your eyes overcomes
سأمزقI will tear apart لحظاتٍmoments حُبلىpregnant
سأمزق لحظاتٍ حُبلى
بحنينwith longing سكبتهpoured it out القبلُthe kisses
بحنين سكبته القبلُ
I shall tear apart moments pregnant
I will tear moments pregnant
with longing poured forth by kisses.
With longing that kisses planted
لاnot وصلكunion with you صارhas become يؤرقنىkeeps me sleepless
لا وصلك صار يؤرقنى
لاnor بعدكafter you قدhas همسwhispered الوصلُunion
لا بعدك قد همس الوصلُ
Neither does union with you now keep me sleepless,
No connection tires me
nor, after you, has union whispered.
No distance whispered connection
لاnor أنتyou كماas كنتyou were سماحاًgenerosity
لا أنت كما كنت سماحاً
لاnor القلبthe heart بصدركin your breast ينتقلُmoves
لا القلب بصدرك ينتقلُ
Nor are you as generous as you were;
You're not as you were forgiving
nor does the heart in your breast move
Nor the heart in your chest moves
لمدىto the extent of الاحساسfeeling بماof what أحوىI hold
لمدى الاحساس بما أحوى
أوor شوقlonging أصبحhas come to be يُختزلُreduced
أو شوق أصبح يُختزلُ
to the reaches of feeling what I hold,
To the extent of feeling what I harbor
or a longing now being diminished.
Or a longing that's abbreviated
أهواكI love you وand قدindeed كنتُI was قديماًlong ago
أهواك و قد كنتُ قديماً
أخشىI fear أقداراًdestinies تقتتلُfight one another
أخشى أقداراً تقتتلُ
I love you, and long ago I used
I love you and I was before
to fear destinies battling one another
Feared destinies warring
للقائىto meet me فىin الزمنthe time النائىfar-off
للقائى فى الزمن النائى
ببيوتin houses أغرقهاdrowned them السيلُthe flood
ببيوت أغرقها السيلُ
to meet me in a far-off time,
For my encounter in the far time
in houses drowned by the flood.
With homes flooded by the torrent
إنىindeed I لاdo not أملكI own أقدارىmy destinies
إنى لا أملك أقدارى
لاdo not أملكُI have فىin شمسكyour sun ِظلُshade
لا أملكُ فى شمسك ِظلُ
Indeed, I do not own my destinies;
I do not own my fates
I have no shade in your sun.
Nor in your sun a shadow
لكنىbut I املكI possess احساساًa feeling
لكنى املك احساساً
عذباًsweet كالوردlike a rose بهupon it طلُdew
عذباً كالورد به طلُ
But I possess a feeling
But I own a feeling
sweet as a rose with dew upon it.
Sweet as a rose with dew
وجهىmy face منfrom بعدكafter you مهترىءworn away
وجهى من بعدك مهترىء
منfrom رملsand جفائكyour coldness يغتسلُwashes itself
من رمل جفائك يغتسلُ
My face, in your absence, is worn away,
My face after you is ragged
washing itself clean of the sand of your coldness.
From the sands of your dryness washing
بسمائكin your sky قدalready أزفhas drawn near فراقٌa parting
بسمائك قد أزف فراقٌ
قدhave عشتI lived بحسهby the sense of it أنفعلُI am stirred
قد عشت بحسه أنفعلُ
In your sky, a parting has drawn near;
In your skies a farewell looms
I have lived, stirred by the sense of it.
I've lived feeling it impassioned
وand دماءblood فارقهاdeparted from it الولهardent love
و دماء فارقها الوله
وand ديارhomes ليستare not تكتملُbecoming complete
و ديار ليست تكتملُ
And blood from which ardent love has departed,
And blood that desire abandoned
and homes that remain incomplete.
And a home that won't be completed
لنwill not اطرقI knock الاّكexcept you نهاراًby day
لن اطرق الاّك نهاراً
إنif عششnested فىin سقفىmy roof ليلُnight
إن عشش فى سقفى ليلُ
I will knock at no door but yours by day,
I won't knock on your door by day
if night has nested in my roof.
If night nests on my ceiling
وand أناI متكىءٌreclining فىin صمتٍsilence
و أنا متكىءٌ فى صمتٍ
أتعلمI learn سجعكyour rhymed prose أرتجلُI improvise
أتعلم سجعك أرتجلُ
And I recline in silence,
And I, leaning in silence
I learn your rhymed prose; I improvise.
Learn your rhymes improvising
الّمنىpained me هجركyour abandonment فىin بلدa land
الّمنى هجرك فى بلد
يقصدهاseeks it الصمتsilence وand لاno مَلَلُboredom
يقصدها الصمت و لا مَلَلُ
Your abandonment pained me in a land
Wishes deserted you in a land
that silence seeks, with no boredom.
Visited by silence without boredom
الآنnow سأختمI will conclude كلماتىmy words
الآن سأختم كلماتى
لاno أسفٌregret يبدوappears لاno خجلُshame
لا أسفٌ يبدو لا خجلُ
Now I shall conclude my words:
Now I will end my words
no regret appears, no shame.
No regrets appear nor shame
هذىthese الأيامdays سأدفنهاI will bury them
هذى الأيام سأدفنها
لكنbut بالذكرىwith the memory احتفِلُI celebrate
لكن بالذكرى احتفِلُ
These days—I shall bury them,
These days I will bury
but I celebrate the memory.
But with memories celebrate
Sol 6.1